9 survivors...12 dropped out. I survived.
"Heated up till we're red hot,
Hammered like a still rod..
Sifted through the hemp and dust,
Leaving those who held fast.."
That was my weekend.
But why must all things be tested?
I thought by reading through the Alchemist and Zahir, that my heart knew wad it had to do..
But alas challenges are shapeless forms.
In the forms of loved ones who go lonely,
Parents who dote on you,
Lovers who support you,
Dates you might miss,
In weak faith,
In uncertainty,
Of greener pastures you've never even touched,
Brick walls that are made to keep people off, obstacles to only let those who belong in and those who really want to enter though, can be broken down..
But that psycological web blocking the passageway can only be passed if you overcome the fear of that spider in the middle.
Can i?
I have one foot on that island already. They're just waiting for that other foot to cross over.
Well, i prayed to God if his wasn't meant for me, fail me. Make me fall out. Dun let me pass the selection. Compel me to give up.
But he didn't. I passed. Got called up today by that familiar friendly voice telling me to go where and where, to bring what and what and to be punctual. I believe this is the path He allows me through as part of his divine plan perhaps. The way He led me to the career fair, the way he opened up my eyes to the logo of the booth, the way he compelled me to approach that booth, the way he closed my heart to the various job opportunities outside. To how my resume perfectly forms itself for this career even after various attempts to shape it (albeit unsuccessfully) for the other jobs i thought i wanted. How an old fren is already there to receive me. I believe it is His divine hand in all this.
If i were to rejct it.. it will haunt me. Forever it shall remain a dream. Afraid to fufill it as it will then leave a void.. What difference does it make knowing that i could be there but i chose not to, when in fact i want to. Is it similar to not being chosen to be there when i wanted to?
For now, i need to confront that spider.
Cause i know what i want to do cos i'm good at it and that's what i want to do.
May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after... and help me decide. Open my path and brighten it. Do not darken the road i left behind. Leave every road i passed though brighter and more colourful than it was before i thread its' path.
