My coherent thoughts..AT LAST!
We're on this topic of promise again..on my notion that a word suffices as a promise.
There is one word i can never say out to a friend cause i will never mean it. It causes confusion and in turn..leads one on the wrong path.
A 'Promise' and 'Commitment' to its fulfilment are a process in togetherness that is also termed as 'Responsibilities'.
We'll start from the back (people always tell us to start with the end in mind ryt?) with Responsibilities. Questioned myself..this was my thought process that tym..
1.Can i take the responsibilities?
2.Do i need this now?
3.What are other considerations that i have in mind?
4.Have i really forgotten?
5.What will be the consequences if...?
This were my answers. If u disagree with me u can comment on it..im really open for comments.
1.Have i really fulfilled my responsibilities towards my OWN family? Myself? And can i fulfil this promise if i make it?
2.Do i really need this now? No i guess cause what for since im still only in my 1st year of University. I havn't even gone thru any examinations or tested how well i can do. I have just this focus now..bursaries and scholarship as well as value creation.
3.What are the other considerations in mind? Do i really need to settle down now on one choice. I noe i may sound like a jerk but considering i have like at least 5 years before marriageable age..its too long a time. And how long have i known her? 1 month..what are the odds?
4.This is one burning question..Have i really forgotten? I guess no..
5.What will be the consequences if anything negative was to happen? I dun want to go thru all the emotional distress again however confident i feel to be able to handle it now since i went thru it before and other factors as maturity and wisdom. (I noe u wun agree Kecik!)
The consequences are tough to bear and will it affect my goals and focus? I guess inevitably it will.
Now since i've gone through this thought process and hardened my stand towards this issue..i guess yah..i dun want this right now. I figured out this will be left best when i can assure myself i can still focus on my goals, fulfil my own requirements and commit fully...then only will i make that promise.
I guess she is asking too much of me right now. I would only want a friend..i need friends as Redha, Lina, Azack and the others. (Lawakians are considered KAKAKs and those who i didnt mention but are pretty close to me..sorry i didnt say ur name.) They are very close to me and yet i can be close and not mix emotions into it..It is VERY POSSIBLE if ur intentions are clear and yet..she can't accept my suggestion that we got this way.
Its an issue of two stubborn-heads..two selfish buggers logging it out and at one side..we have it considered under a context of Love? How can it b when right now, we cant even settle on this issue. If its Love..this issue will be resolved fast.. Simple..love entails sacrifice and this ability to sacrifice for the one you love gives you the credibility to say the word 'I Love u'..
Its not right isn't it to claim that you love a person if u won't sacrifice? Why do parents and grandparents as well as siblings..love you? Cause no matter what, they have sacrificed for u (In general..) time, goals, money, beauty and also life to bring u up and make sure u grow up good.
Life sucks doesnt it? But i still love it..
This issue now is somewhat settled for my side. I know now that some people don't work the way others do. I need to curb myself from my own nature to prevent this from happening again. I know that in this process..people get hurt and i really feel it when people get hurt because of hurt. I hate the feeling..it hurts even more than myself getting hurt.
So i guess..what i have to do now is stand firm and resilient and focus on my own goals. There is more i got to learn..i have yet to really respect myself enough to allow myself to commit to this.
I dunno..Naj..did u go thru this? Azack, Red n Lina and Fyque..any comment? I guess this was one thing that i hid from u guys long enuf till it is all hard to bear alone...This sux.. Thats why sometimes i just love my introverted self that kicks in.. I can jus lay back and no have a care of whims and all.. To mark this eventful day. I AM GOING TO CUT MY HAIR..u can rejoice all u want ppl..4 month of long hair made me gonggong..
And kecik..i noe this is also too short for ur 4 hr break..
OK..i need to get ready to go to work. N ya..i'll intro u guys to my fren kecik sometime..n vice versa..Fyque, she plays ur role in sch for me..but pulling me down ALL the tym and she rolls her eyes too! Hahahaha...i wanted to intro her to u but she dun wan..she wears black too..haha..
And lastly..to those that i've hurt before..just note that i feel hurt too when i hurt someone.
May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...
There is one word i can never say out to a friend cause i will never mean it. It causes confusion and in turn..leads one on the wrong path.
A 'Promise' and 'Commitment' to its fulfilment are a process in togetherness that is also termed as 'Responsibilities'.
We'll start from the back (people always tell us to start with the end in mind ryt?) with Responsibilities. Questioned myself..this was my thought process that tym..
1.Can i take the responsibilities?
2.Do i need this now?
3.What are other considerations that i have in mind?
4.Have i really forgotten?
5.What will be the consequences if...?
This were my answers. If u disagree with me u can comment on it..im really open for comments.
1.Have i really fulfilled my responsibilities towards my OWN family? Myself? And can i fulfil this promise if i make it?
2.Do i really need this now? No i guess cause what for since im still only in my 1st year of University. I havn't even gone thru any examinations or tested how well i can do. I have just this focus now..bursaries and scholarship as well as value creation.
3.What are the other considerations in mind? Do i really need to settle down now on one choice. I noe i may sound like a jerk but considering i have like at least 5 years before marriageable age..its too long a time. And how long have i known her? 1 month..what are the odds?
4.This is one burning question..Have i really forgotten? I guess no..
5.What will be the consequences if anything negative was to happen? I dun want to go thru all the emotional distress again however confident i feel to be able to handle it now since i went thru it before and other factors as maturity and wisdom. (I noe u wun agree Kecik!)
The consequences are tough to bear and will it affect my goals and focus? I guess inevitably it will.
Now since i've gone through this thought process and hardened my stand towards this issue..i guess yah..i dun want this right now. I figured out this will be left best when i can assure myself i can still focus on my goals, fulfil my own requirements and commit fully...then only will i make that promise.
I guess she is asking too much of me right now. I would only want a friend..i need friends as Redha, Lina, Azack and the others. (Lawakians are considered KAKAKs and those who i didnt mention but are pretty close to me..sorry i didnt say ur name.) They are very close to me and yet i can be close and not mix emotions into it..It is VERY POSSIBLE if ur intentions are clear and yet..she can't accept my suggestion that we got this way.
Its an issue of two stubborn-heads..two selfish buggers logging it out and at one side..we have it considered under a context of Love? How can it b when right now, we cant even settle on this issue. If its Love..this issue will be resolved fast.. Simple..love entails sacrifice and this ability to sacrifice for the one you love gives you the credibility to say the word 'I Love u'..
Its not right isn't it to claim that you love a person if u won't sacrifice? Why do parents and grandparents as well as siblings..love you? Cause no matter what, they have sacrificed for u (In general..) time, goals, money, beauty and also life to bring u up and make sure u grow up good.
Life sucks doesnt it? But i still love it..
This issue now is somewhat settled for my side. I know now that some people don't work the way others do. I need to curb myself from my own nature to prevent this from happening again. I know that in this process..people get hurt and i really feel it when people get hurt because of hurt. I hate the feeling..it hurts even more than myself getting hurt.
So i guess..what i have to do now is stand firm and resilient and focus on my own goals. There is more i got to learn..i have yet to really respect myself enough to allow myself to commit to this.
I dunno..Naj..did u go thru this? Azack, Red n Lina and Fyque..any comment? I guess this was one thing that i hid from u guys long enuf till it is all hard to bear alone...This sux.. Thats why sometimes i just love my introverted self that kicks in.. I can jus lay back and no have a care of whims and all.. To mark this eventful day. I AM GOING TO CUT MY HAIR..u can rejoice all u want ppl..4 month of long hair made me gonggong..
And kecik..i noe this is also too short for ur 4 hr break..
OK..i need to get ready to go to work. N ya..i'll intro u guys to my fren kecik sometime..n vice versa..Fyque, she plays ur role in sch for me..but pulling me down ALL the tym and she rolls her eyes too! Hahahaha...i wanted to intro her to u but she dun wan..she wears black too..haha..
And lastly..to those that i've hurt before..just note that i feel hurt too when i hurt someone.
May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...
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