A message for the ONE..
Hmm..good or bad weekend? Dunno how to describe it..
Shall i describe it this way..
Whateva i do gets kicked off the wall..
However hard i try..it always bounces back.
Sometimes..it seems like i got thru..
Like it passed thru the goal-line..BUT..
It always..99 out of a hundred times..
Got cleared off the goal mouth.
Desperation? Naah..
Frustration? Sometimes..
Infatuation? Dunno sia..
Congratulations? Not yet please.
These years that i've tried,
I dun even noe how it'll turn out to be.
Hope and faith in the believe carried me thru..
Blindly..(or is it?) i followed.
Was i selfish to turn down the others..
To pursue this dream i had?
I doubted so..for me..it was worth it.
I always had a thing for the moon..
Its light glowing the dark..
symbolising hope..
or could it symbolise a dream far from reach?
That day..the full moon went on for 5 nights.
It felt like a message to me..
It could be that of hope..or that of my poor vision.
That the unripened moon was thot of being ripe.
I cannot help but be pessimistic..
A side of me uncovered..
From the experiences dished out upon me.
I cannot help but think..i will happen again.
Altho i pray it will not.
Faith kept me strong..for these 5 years i went on.
The dove delivered the message..
But was it read?
Or was it kept..to be read at a time most suitable?
Questions..kept bellowing in my mind.
Questions..
It happened on Thursday..happened again on Sunday. And the remedy..SLEEP. Sleep to console the aching heart yet REM wasnt achieved. At least Sunday's one was better. The msg came in at 0050HR and 0150HR..but the warning was considered one of the earlier ones. Could i have answered a "NO!..it will go on." What would the consequences have been? But my answer was one expected..my weak heart answered. I did not regret my reply at all cos it was a true answer from the heart. I did not need to be appreciated for that cos i did not asked to be doing what i did. Whatever i gave..i did not insure it for any price. But a return would be nice.
It was like what my cuz and me used to say.."HIDUP GAMBLE MATI GENTLE".. which means..Risk a gamble in life and u wun regret dying. Its like..u did what u wanted and u had no regrets..WILLIAM HUNG way!! HAha..
But really..it doesnt really matter cos wat i did..i did willingly. I walk side by side with u but u can choose to hold my hand when u want to..
But that one thing u owed me..I hold u to it K!! I WILL be selfish on this..HEHE (Ciao ChinChao..Chendol OUT).
May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...
Shall i describe it this way..
Whateva i do gets kicked off the wall..
However hard i try..it always bounces back.
Sometimes..it seems like i got thru..
Like it passed thru the goal-line..BUT..
It always..99 out of a hundred times..
Got cleared off the goal mouth.
Desperation? Naah..
Frustration? Sometimes..
Infatuation? Dunno sia..
Congratulations? Not yet please.
These years that i've tried,
I dun even noe how it'll turn out to be.
Hope and faith in the believe carried me thru..
Blindly..(or is it?) i followed.
Was i selfish to turn down the others..
To pursue this dream i had?
I doubted so..for me..it was worth it.
I always had a thing for the moon..
Its light glowing the dark..
symbolising hope..
or could it symbolise a dream far from reach?
That day..the full moon went on for 5 nights.
It felt like a message to me..
It could be that of hope..or that of my poor vision.
That the unripened moon was thot of being ripe.
I cannot help but be pessimistic..
A side of me uncovered..
From the experiences dished out upon me.
I cannot help but think..i will happen again.
Altho i pray it will not.
Faith kept me strong..for these 5 years i went on.
The dove delivered the message..
But was it read?
Or was it kept..to be read at a time most suitable?
Questions..kept bellowing in my mind.
Questions..
It happened on Thursday..happened again on Sunday. And the remedy..SLEEP. Sleep to console the aching heart yet REM wasnt achieved. At least Sunday's one was better. The msg came in at 0050HR and 0150HR..but the warning was considered one of the earlier ones. Could i have answered a "NO!..it will go on." What would the consequences have been? But my answer was one expected..my weak heart answered. I did not regret my reply at all cos it was a true answer from the heart. I did not need to be appreciated for that cos i did not asked to be doing what i did. Whatever i gave..i did not insure it for any price. But a return would be nice.
It was like what my cuz and me used to say.."HIDUP GAMBLE MATI GENTLE".. which means..Risk a gamble in life and u wun regret dying. Its like..u did what u wanted and u had no regrets..WILLIAM HUNG way!! HAha..
But really..it doesnt really matter cos wat i did..i did willingly. I walk side by side with u but u can choose to hold my hand when u want to..
But that one thing u owed me..I hold u to it K!! I WILL be selfish on this..HEHE (Ciao ChinChao..Chendol OUT).
May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...
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