Doamu Ibu azimat hatiku...

Posted on 12.7.07 comments (2)

It feels so hard to leave silat now..

Haiz....................................................looks like its a year more to go for silat and for my studies. Sort of decided that i'll end it with a bachelors, a merit if i could. Strategies have shifted.

AUG? I also dunno.... But tunggal? NEVER!! Hahaha...

It's not that i lost heart or something.. It's just that i dun think im ever gonna be good enough to win realistically. Hahaha... (it quite similar to losing heart anyway...)

I need to start back on recovery already. Not that i haven't but i dun think sitting back and playing the guitar or sleeping or watching tv or doing laundry or going to the market or driving or singing or talking on the fone helps in recovery anyway...

School's about to start and i just missed the Module Preference exercise by 3 minutes!! Blardy hell....haiz. Such is the inconveniences of not being internet-ready.

I wanna watch harry potter with mama...

So many things i dun wanna do...

My life suck but i love it.

Hahaha... missed that line!

Debbie Travis is over...now replaced by 3 wishes..a tear jerker. But at least there's Extreme makeover home edition at 2pm. When can i realise my dream in interior design and home building?? Are academic grades that important that they decide the outcome of your life? I never believed that...and i am yet to succumb to it... passion and drive are more important and yes, hardwork and ability too. But since im in the system and my parents put money into it.... might as well try to succeed and at least do my best in it.

Dream all you want.. but face reality when you do so.

That's what Cik Khidir said to me...

Here's what i sing to myself when im down too... people who know me know this is my all time favourite pick-me-uppie song... Its 'Yakin' by Art Fazil...one of my favourite singers.

Biar menitis asal tak putus
Kata ibu padaku
Biar sedikit asal tak pupus
Biar perlahan jangan berhenti

Kehidupan ini hanya sekejap
Semua kan kau tinggalkan
Di dalam perlumbaan mengejar
Apa yang material
Jangan tinggal solat
Selamat dunia akhirat

Mungkin
Segalanya mungkin
Apa kan terjadi pasti terjadi
Yakin
Hati terus yakin
Dengan harapan
Pada ketentuan Tuhan

Tak bisa berlari aku berjalan
Tak bisa berjalan aku merangkak
Tak bisa merangkak aku mengesot
Perlahan-lahan aku kan sampai jua

Kembara ini kurasakan jauh
Di manakah penghujungnya
Berat mata memandang
Berat lagi bahu memikul
Doamu ibu azimat hatiku

I want to eat with Kamie at BK....

shall continue later...

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...