I miss you..
The nurse is at Port Dickson..this is the longest days apart so far. 2 days..WAHAHA..
Well, before she left, we wrote letters to each other and hers was the BEST and most visualisingly shweet letter i have ever received in my entire life. It drove me to tears reading it but of course..she doesnt know cos she was buying her White Chocolate Dream at Coffee Bean. By the time she's back..tears all wiped and i reached the funny part of the letter. Shhhhhh...dun tell her!! Paisehh! I dun think i shall publish even an inkling of the letter here cos it IS meant for me.. but both of us unanimously decided that if Honeymoons really last forever..that we will document our love live for memory sake. Awwww...
Im sitting here at school library now. NO..not mugging but utilising the internet service here and checking the tons of emails that i have not checked! Thats wat you get when you live in isolation...HAHAHA..no internet, no contact. My neighbour finally encrypted his wireless so i cant use it anymore. The reception at my grandma's place suck real time...so no contact. Hehehe...sorry to those who are inconvenienced!
Im missing her..she smsed yesterday and just now. She too...two love-dorks separated geographically. But then, yesterday was full moon, 15th rejab, and both of us looked at the moon. There is only one moon visible with the naked eye from earth if you are not aware so both me and nurse were looking at the same thing from 2 far places. As i looked and gazed while sitting at clementi..i prayed to Him to protect her and bring her back safely.
Well..we both cant wait for Friday (tomorrow)..thats all we know and we are really looking forward to tomorrow!! I booked Hitam for tomorrow but i reckon it'll be a short day. After friday prayers, i am accompanying my dad for his check-up at Tan Tock Seng. Unless she wants to tag along! But hmm...I am not prepared for her to meet my dad..hahaha..like her nenek said. "Takot bapak marah eh??" I dun think he'd scold but..yeah..just unpreped!
Talking about dad..Nurse was grilled by hers. He asked her a whole lot of questions but the one that strikes me was "Why do you like hime?" She was too paiseh to answer but this reassurance from her dad opened her heart to. He highlighted to her his daring move of openness in conversation with her, his encouragement to our relationship, his wanting only happiness for her and all of these actually touched me. His authority as a dad, allowed for him to be able to stop us dead in the tracks anytime he wanted to but he chose to encourage instead. He even told us to plan ahead..our individual and collective goals right down to nitty gritty things like individual or shared bank accounts. He wanted us to write down on paper, values and visions we wanted in this relationship and that i should park nearer to his place when i pick her up and salam him. AAAAAAAAAARGGGGGH!!!!!!!!!! Takot!! But that was a great encouragement to us. We could be pressured by all these and think we are going too fast but 5 years isnt far and people who fail to plan..plan to fail.
As we penned down our goals and visions independently..we discovered one thing, as different as we are in some traits of our personality, our visions and goals are one. Soundly and surely in unison..
Like i've told her..i am not one to compromise my goals and visions. Being with her didnt change or alter any of my goals and plans. She was the last jigsaw peice that completed my life..my search.. She was the dream girl i was obsessed about and being with her reinforced my goals further. So, i never had to alter any of me for her. With her..i AM myself..i never had to compromise. We naturally blended in to solutions so there need not be compromise.
Nurul said to me when i commented how i won't compromise for something..that i sometimes have to compromise, to give in. Well..with Kamie i need not..and she need not too. Thats why we were sure when we discovered each other that each other was the person we have each been waiting for. No compromise about that...no regrets. She wasnt second choice..not to any girl, any friend, companion, confidante or scandals.. she is not someone who occupies my heart. She IS my heart.
That is why i value patience..if u really want something and something else comes ur way and u dun really want it. WAIT..until you come to a point where you accept it as your first choice, something you REALLY REALLY want.. something with zero opportunity costs...(the opportunity cost of something is the value of the next best alternative forgone..).. If you find it..GO..all out with one heart. With her...i put zero effort into pur relationship cause everything i did for her was a pleasure..with a smile so much so that i always felt like i did not do enough. But really..she is number one ever.
Waiting for her to come back..and looking forward for our date.
May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...
Well, before she left, we wrote letters to each other and hers was the BEST and most visualisingly shweet letter i have ever received in my entire life. It drove me to tears reading it but of course..she doesnt know cos she was buying her White Chocolate Dream at Coffee Bean. By the time she's back..tears all wiped and i reached the funny part of the letter. Shhhhhh...dun tell her!! Paisehh! I dun think i shall publish even an inkling of the letter here cos it IS meant for me.. but both of us unanimously decided that if Honeymoons really last forever..that we will document our love live for memory sake. Awwww...
Im sitting here at school library now. NO..not mugging but utilising the internet service here and checking the tons of emails that i have not checked! Thats wat you get when you live in isolation...HAHAHA..no internet, no contact. My neighbour finally encrypted his wireless so i cant use it anymore. The reception at my grandma's place suck real time...so no contact. Hehehe...sorry to those who are inconvenienced!
Im missing her..she smsed yesterday and just now. She too...two love-dorks separated geographically. But then, yesterday was full moon, 15th rejab, and both of us looked at the moon. There is only one moon visible with the naked eye from earth if you are not aware so both me and nurse were looking at the same thing from 2 far places. As i looked and gazed while sitting at clementi..i prayed to Him to protect her and bring her back safely.
Well..we both cant wait for Friday (tomorrow)..thats all we know and we are really looking forward to tomorrow!! I booked Hitam for tomorrow but i reckon it'll be a short day. After friday prayers, i am accompanying my dad for his check-up at Tan Tock Seng. Unless she wants to tag along! But hmm...I am not prepared for her to meet my dad..hahaha..like her nenek said. "Takot bapak marah eh??" I dun think he'd scold but..yeah..just unpreped!
Talking about dad..Nurse was grilled by hers. He asked her a whole lot of questions but the one that strikes me was "Why do you like hime?" She was too paiseh to answer but this reassurance from her dad opened her heart to. He highlighted to her his daring move of openness in conversation with her, his encouragement to our relationship, his wanting only happiness for her and all of these actually touched me. His authority as a dad, allowed for him to be able to stop us dead in the tracks anytime he wanted to but he chose to encourage instead. He even told us to plan ahead..our individual and collective goals right down to nitty gritty things like individual or shared bank accounts. He wanted us to write down on paper, values and visions we wanted in this relationship and that i should park nearer to his place when i pick her up and salam him. AAAAAAAAAARGGGGGH!!!!!!!!!! Takot!! But that was a great encouragement to us. We could be pressured by all these and think we are going too fast but 5 years isnt far and people who fail to plan..plan to fail.
As we penned down our goals and visions independently..we discovered one thing, as different as we are in some traits of our personality, our visions and goals are one. Soundly and surely in unison..
Like i've told her..i am not one to compromise my goals and visions. Being with her didnt change or alter any of my goals and plans. She was the last jigsaw peice that completed my life..my search.. She was the dream girl i was obsessed about and being with her reinforced my goals further. So, i never had to alter any of me for her. With her..i AM myself..i never had to compromise. We naturally blended in to solutions so there need not be compromise.
Nurul said to me when i commented how i won't compromise for something..that i sometimes have to compromise, to give in. Well..with Kamie i need not..and she need not too. Thats why we were sure when we discovered each other that each other was the person we have each been waiting for. No compromise about that...no regrets. She wasnt second choice..not to any girl, any friend, companion, confidante or scandals.. she is not someone who occupies my heart. She IS my heart.
That is why i value patience..if u really want something and something else comes ur way and u dun really want it. WAIT..until you come to a point where you accept it as your first choice, something you REALLY REALLY want.. something with zero opportunity costs...(the opportunity cost of something is the value of the next best alternative forgone..).. If you find it..GO..all out with one heart. With her...i put zero effort into pur relationship cause everything i did for her was a pleasure..with a smile so much so that i always felt like i did not do enough. But really..she is number one ever.
Waiting for her to come back..and looking forward for our date.
May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...
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