I am very thankful...
YES...i still cannot sleep.
It has been roughly 4 hours since my previous post. Since then, i tried to lie down, read...doodle...visualise but nothing got me to lala-the-dreamland...
So i decided to change the blogskin to a very effiminate one..i think this is the most effiminate one that i've ever made. Wahaha...tulips and windmill... When will it become a reality to view the things in real life?? Ops HHF will have to kickstart now! Hahaha...if not...haiz...nothing will be a reality.
Dun ask me why my design is like this..dun ask me why my baju silat is purple for tomorrow...and dun ask me what those words mean. Please...please...do not infer. Hahaha..thank you. If you understand, you will. If you don't..you don't. The simple things in life shouldnt be made complicated especially with distorted perceptions.
So i try to think only of good..but don't scowl on me if i think bad cos im only human to make mistakes even though i may try all i can to do the best that i could..(I'm just ranting..)
OK...i'm afraid to fall later. I'm afraid that i can't sit cross-legged. I'm afraid i might wobble and lose my balance. I'm afraid i might forget. I'm afraid the parang or the stick will slip off my hands. I'm afraid i go too fast or too slow. I'm afraid that the jury will come to me and bite my legs off. I'm afraid that the crowd will boo me. I'm afraid the stick will bounce up and hit me in the face when i slam it on the mattress. I'm afraid my samping and tanjak will fall off. I'm afraid my pants will tear. I'm afraid that i might lose...i dun like to lose.
Redha just reminded me of what i am in a short conversation we had a hours ago..this was her reply after i said that for tomorrow, i will just aim to get through..to justqualify for the finals..her reply..
Hahaha...thanks Red. At least, with all the so called 'retributions' i get, i knew i did some things in life right to be able to have such great and loyal friends even through times where i lost myself. I'm sorry...and yes..U TOO. I am most thankful for u.
I will sleep...and i will impress so much that thunderous claps will fill the hall. Even those against me will clap in awe..WAHAHAHAHA...*evil laugh*
May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...
It has been roughly 4 hours since my previous post. Since then, i tried to lie down, read...doodle...visualise but nothing got me to lala-the-dreamland...
So i decided to change the blogskin to a very effiminate one..i think this is the most effiminate one that i've ever made. Wahaha...tulips and windmill... When will it become a reality to view the things in real life?? Ops HHF will have to kickstart now! Hahaha...if not...haiz...nothing will be a reality.
Dun ask me why my design is like this..dun ask me why my baju silat is purple for tomorrow...and dun ask me what those words mean. Please...please...do not infer. Hahaha..thank you. If you understand, you will. If you don't..you don't. The simple things in life shouldnt be made complicated especially with distorted perceptions.
"The good people may not last long in life...but the good people enjoy peace in their short life."
So i try to think only of good..but don't scowl on me if i think bad cos im only human to make mistakes even though i may try all i can to do the best that i could..(I'm just ranting..)
OK...i'm afraid to fall later. I'm afraid that i can't sit cross-legged.
Redha just reminded me of what i am in a short conversation we had a hours ago..this was her reply after i said that for tomorrow, i will just aim to get through..to justqualify for the finals..her reply..
"Is this the Faizal i know? Only aiming to qualify? The Faizal i knew never aimed for that...he only aims for number one. Not even number two..just the top."
Hahaha...thanks Red. At least, with all the so called 'retributions' i get, i knew i did some things in life right to be able to have such great and loyal friends even through times where i lost myself. I'm sorry...and yes..U TOO. I am most thankful for u.
I will sleep...and i will impress so much that thunderous claps will fill the hall. Even those against me will clap in awe..WAHAHAHAHA...*evil laugh*
May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...
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