An Obsession...My obesession..its mine..only mine..
Its now the 22nd of October 2005..0615hrs.
I am sitting here..yet to let this physical form of mine take its much undeserved rest. Yesterday was a day of relaxation. In the morning..i accompanied my grandmother to the shop before i headed to Clementi to meet Fyq to head to Darul Makmur mosque in Yishun. On the way..i coincided with an old neighbour of mine. Abg Zaki if im not wrong..the one who now works with CISCO.We talked for around 10mins..rather awkward though becos sometimes..i jus cant recall people we talked about and i was rather honest with the generous 'blur like sotong' expression on my face! Hahaha..i will go like "Huh? I dun remeber who tat is but im sure i'll recognise if i see his face.." with my eyebrows distorted..one up and one down but slanted ala the Rock..hahaha...well, at least i can conclude that they (my ex neighbours) are still doing ok. Hahaha...to be honest..i only mixed around with them during Koran reading class and religious class which i can assume that nearly 90% of muslim kids in the vicinity attend! Our favourite game would be police and thieve..(violent style!) at the playground..no holds-barred..Hahaha!! Wohooo...by the time religious class started, we would be sweaty! Hehe..but i still cant recall Juzailah..i dun look at gals larh!! Why dun u all believe me?!..(*smirking..)
Well.abt yesterday..Hahaha..we have a new F1 racer in our midst! Kak Yatee who just passed her class 3 licence rented a car for the weekend to JB and we got to go round today in the car. Collected the car at Yishun..quite reasonable price..60per day..still available for Raya week so far but must rent for one week la..but i tink its cheaper compared to outside price..well, me and Fyq were educating Kak Yatee on the art of dirty road skills! not so dirty la..jus tips here and there from perspectives of 2 kinds of vehicle-owners on the roads..(dangerous road owners..hellish!) Hahaha..car stalled 2 times..but naah..should be thick skinned thru all the horning but NEVER lose cool..happened to Donkey sooooo many times (stalling) that my facial skin has grown relatively thick. One tip to riders and drivers..try not to get affected by horns. If u are confident of ur driving..the horns re not meant for u..cos ysyally when u r horned upon..u tend to easily get pissed..and on the road..DUN get pissed. U'll get reckless..focus drops..more prone to danger either to others or urself..or even jus only ur vehicle. OK?
Haiz..now resting after mugging.. but hey! I found a new hobby..wallpaper making! Im like constantly changing wallpaper to suit my mood..but for this moment..im still obsessed by my dream..so im trying to picture it out on the wallpaper..but the nearest that came to it was the siti n 2 children wallpaper. No cat tho..haiz..dunno whether my dream is real..i would like to believe it is..cos it feels so peaceful..i dunno what comes before or after that moment but at THAT MOMENT..it was like peaceful..imagine recalling moments in ur life in silent picture..all u feel is the emotions..u feel the voices but not hear them..u feel the emotions n see them yet its all in silent. There was really a rush of emotions during that short dream..
I recall opening the door..walking into my home (somehow i just knew it was mine..) the ceiling was relatively high but it wasn't a house..i dunno whether its a flat though. There was a portion with an improvised 2nd floor to exploit the high ceiling..and out came two kids greeting me..full of cheer and happiness..i know there was one girl..cute and a bit chubby..and following behind them is a cat..all dolled up like a barbie doll. The three of us laughed..me knowing that the kids were the ones who mischieivously 'dolled' up the poor family cat..and as i walked towards the kitchen..there was a woman..i felt that was my wife..washing dishes or preparing food at the kitchen sink. Before she could turn i could see her face..i woke up.. DARRRNNN!!! Bloody beyblades.. Hahahaha...i cant really recognise her..samar-samar..it was at a distance..But that dream to me..is one i never want to wipe off my memory as it was the only time i had that sort of dream in my entire life..not the dream..but 'the type' of dream. Other dreams u noe is fake even thou u go thru it as thou it were real till u wake up n u immediately knew u had a dream. But this dream..i woke up..feeling i had seem the future..feeling different than other times. I smiled..feeling great.
Well..my life now is dedicated to that moment in time..focused to achieve that sense of fulfilment ad happiness. I dunno what wld happen after that..who knows. This obsession with that one dream is driving me ahead now...its a good motivation for life u noe..no more living or studying to get a great comfy job but working and studying to achieve that fulfilment..to arrive at that destiny.
Maybe it was Allah's way to me..by showing me a bit of the future as a motivation for me now. Maybe it wun ever even turn out true but heck..it was the greatest dream in my entire life!
Ok dok..now i wanna go do stand-by donkey! Clean it up..but its raining lar..maybe when it stops..
Ok doks..vanakkam!
May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...
I am sitting here..yet to let this physical form of mine take its much undeserved rest. Yesterday was a day of relaxation. In the morning..i accompanied my grandmother to the shop before i headed to Clementi to meet Fyq to head to Darul Makmur mosque in Yishun. On the way..i coincided with an old neighbour of mine. Abg Zaki if im not wrong..the one who now works with CISCO.We talked for around 10mins..rather awkward though becos sometimes..i jus cant recall people we talked about and i was rather honest with the generous 'blur like sotong' expression on my face! Hahaha..i will go like "Huh? I dun remeber who tat is but im sure i'll recognise if i see his face.." with my eyebrows distorted..one up and one down but slanted ala the Rock..hahaha...well, at least i can conclude that they (my ex neighbours) are still doing ok. Hahaha...to be honest..i only mixed around with them during Koran reading class and religious class which i can assume that nearly 90% of muslim kids in the vicinity attend! Our favourite game would be police and thieve..(violent style!) at the playground..no holds-barred..Hahaha!! Wohooo...by the time religious class started, we would be sweaty! Hehe..but i still cant recall Juzailah..i dun look at gals larh!! Why dun u all believe me?!..(*smirking..)
Well.abt yesterday..Hahaha..we have a new F1 racer in our midst! Kak Yatee who just passed her class 3 licence rented a car for the weekend to JB and we got to go round today in the car. Collected the car at Yishun..quite reasonable price..60per day..still available for Raya week so far but must rent for one week la..but i tink its cheaper compared to outside price..well, me and Fyq were educating Kak Yatee on the art of dirty road skills! not so dirty la..jus tips here and there from perspectives of 2 kinds of vehicle-owners on the roads..(dangerous road owners..hellish!) Hahaha..car stalled 2 times..but naah..should be thick skinned thru all the horning but NEVER lose cool..happened to Donkey sooooo many times (stalling) that my facial skin has grown relatively thick. One tip to riders and drivers..try not to get affected by horns. If u are confident of ur driving..the horns re not meant for u..cos ysyally when u r horned upon..u tend to easily get pissed..and on the road..DUN get pissed. U'll get reckless..focus drops..more prone to danger either to others or urself..or even jus only ur vehicle. OK?
Haiz..now resting after mugging.. but hey! I found a new hobby..wallpaper making! Im like constantly changing wallpaper to suit my mood..but for this moment..im still obsessed by my dream..so im trying to picture it out on the wallpaper..but the nearest that came to it was the siti n 2 children wallpaper. No cat tho..haiz..dunno whether my dream is real..i would like to believe it is..cos it feels so peaceful..i dunno what comes before or after that moment but at THAT MOMENT..it was like peaceful..imagine recalling moments in ur life in silent picture..all u feel is the emotions..u feel the voices but not hear them..u feel the emotions n see them yet its all in silent. There was really a rush of emotions during that short dream..
I recall opening the door..walking into my home (somehow i just knew it was mine..) the ceiling was relatively high but it wasn't a house..i dunno whether its a flat though. There was a portion with an improvised 2nd floor to exploit the high ceiling..and out came two kids greeting me..full of cheer and happiness..i know there was one girl..cute and a bit chubby..and following behind them is a cat..all dolled up like a barbie doll. The three of us laughed..me knowing that the kids were the ones who mischieivously 'dolled' up the poor family cat..and as i walked towards the kitchen..there was a woman..i felt that was my wife..washing dishes or preparing food at the kitchen sink. Before she could turn i could see her face..i woke up.. DARRRNNN!!! Bloody beyblades.. Hahahaha...i cant really recognise her..samar-samar..it was at a distance..But that dream to me..is one i never want to wipe off my memory as it was the only time i had that sort of dream in my entire life..not the dream..but 'the type' of dream. Other dreams u noe is fake even thou u go thru it as thou it were real till u wake up n u immediately knew u had a dream. But this dream..i woke up..feeling i had seem the future..feeling different than other times. I smiled..feeling great.
Well..my life now is dedicated to that moment in time..focused to achieve that sense of fulfilment ad happiness. I dunno what wld happen after that..who knows. This obsession with that one dream is driving me ahead now...its a good motivation for life u noe..no more living or studying to get a great comfy job but working and studying to achieve that fulfilment..to arrive at that destiny.
Maybe it was Allah's way to me..by showing me a bit of the future as a motivation for me now. Maybe it wun ever even turn out true but heck..it was the greatest dream in my entire life!
Ok dok..now i wanna go do stand-by donkey! Clean it up..but its raining lar..maybe when it stops..
Ok doks..vanakkam!
May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...
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