Truth is..
I felt like the most useless guy ever this year..so far.
I forgot how it felt..really..i didnt know how to express it. It had been hard so far, to accept the overwhelming emotions that came. I felt fear..fear that cripples me from my heart. Although the hardness of my heart fenced me away from you, my eyes and emotions were not blind to your sincerity..not dumb towards your genuine efforts. I'm sure whatever i say now won't matter..not anymore.
I'm just not capable to make any decisions now..and i wun feel good doing what is not within me to do..whatever i can offer i did..i did. Honestly..i seldom pulled back. Now u know..
If u felt i pulled back..i seldom did. Teased..i did. Messages and calls..i never pulled back. U could have felt i did..do i? Whenever we talked..did i? If you really thought back and compared..u'd really see..see that there is little difference. That what you thought i pulled back was merely a figment of your perception. Maybe its the increasing expectation..maybe its getting deep.
I'm just not good with words..lazy with communication and am more at peace with myself. Relationships are not built within days..but with moments and experiences. Forging a relationship is different from establishing one. Maybe we had just established ours..
U had been a special fren so far. One willing to stay with me..be happy and share with me. Thank You.
May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...
I forgot how it felt..really..i didnt know how to express it. It had been hard so far, to accept the overwhelming emotions that came. I felt fear..fear that cripples me from my heart. Although the hardness of my heart fenced me away from you, my eyes and emotions were not blind to your sincerity..not dumb towards your genuine efforts. I'm sure whatever i say now won't matter..not anymore.
I'm just not capable to make any decisions now..and i wun feel good doing what is not within me to do..whatever i can offer i did..i did. Honestly..i seldom pulled back. Now u know..
If u felt i pulled back..i seldom did. Teased..i did. Messages and calls..i never pulled back. U could have felt i did..do i? Whenever we talked..did i? If you really thought back and compared..u'd really see..see that there is little difference. That what you thought i pulled back was merely a figment of your perception. Maybe its the increasing expectation..maybe its getting deep.
I'm just not good with words..lazy with communication and am more at peace with myself. Relationships are not built within days..but with moments and experiences. Forging a relationship is different from establishing one. Maybe we had just established ours..
U had been a special fren so far. One willing to stay with me..be happy and share with me. Thank You.
May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...
everything's alright baby, u're not useless....we're doing ok.