Self Awareness..
Donkey wouldnt want to wake up..
Tried for two days..asked Shafie and Halek regarding the black smoke spewing out her exhaust and both said it was due to the carburettor. Halek suggested i just take out the air filter which was not of good use. (He said the ex-owner used a lousy air filter! Another penalty point against the boy!) Hahahah...
But by now..i can feel the muscles in my right leg forming up..and developing. Did some exercises on my left leg to balance it up...dun wan a case of me having one big leg and another smaller one.
Aniwae..yesterday was the memorial service for the tsunami victims. It was held at EXPO..since it was open to public..many people came and most of them had to be ushered towards Hall 4 where they did a live screening since Hall 2, where the actual service was conducted was full. There were many that came alone too. From the young school children to the old. If u saw the sight..it was kinda touching. During the service..i could see a few that teared up, especially during the 1min silence. If u noticed..there were white orchids provided. I saw a women who actually recited a prayer when she was placing the flower back to the table.. Not many did this.
I was supposed to be the OIC contingency force (QRF) for the day..basically to wait for unexpected events (but planned) to happen. But like NDP..it was kinda of fun to volunteer to usher the crowd in and out. Hahaha..please dun say i seek enjoyment from this mournful event coz for us as people on duty..we burn our weekends to facilitate this event..we feel the grieve like others do too..which is why we are happy to carry out our duties.
Hmm..another moment i enjoyed in life have passed. What i re-learnt today was confidence. I nearly forgot the taste of it. Sometimes..its not about how much u know how to do things but how confidently u do it. Many a times..people take advantage of this situation in which many a times..blinds people. There is a great human tendency to look up to the more confident (even though he lacks depth in knowledge). Confidence naturally incites trust and believe. It is a balance that one needs to achieve to be successful. Trust is meant to be gained and maintained. U need confidence and competence to bring u through.
I realise i lack both confidence and competence. I kinda blew the trust people placed in me..sometimes. But not again..conciously lar! Cant please everyone u see! It's a sort of life long resolution. The other key thing is focus. Remember some time when u wanted something so so badly that your only focus was to achieve it? Its the same theory..many failed great leaders have it. They could maintain this tunnel of concentration on their focus to achieve success. But why did they fail..becos thru this tunnel too..they shut themselves out from their surroundings. So how do we do it (Maintain focus and also presence of the surrounding)? Im still grappling with it..But to realize that u r in a situation is the 1st step to change it..Let's try and see whether it works.
May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...
**Aniwae to all my luved ones..(Family, Naj and all those who have been my frens or regarded as a fren even for a moment)...This is part of the prayer i recite for u before i sleep.**
Tried for two days..asked Shafie and Halek regarding the black smoke spewing out her exhaust and both said it was due to the carburettor. Halek suggested i just take out the air filter which was not of good use. (He said the ex-owner used a lousy air filter! Another penalty point against the boy!) Hahahah...
But by now..i can feel the muscles in my right leg forming up..and developing. Did some exercises on my left leg to balance it up...dun wan a case of me having one big leg and another smaller one.
Aniwae..yesterday was the memorial service for the tsunami victims. It was held at EXPO..since it was open to public..many people came and most of them had to be ushered towards Hall 4 where they did a live screening since Hall 2, where the actual service was conducted was full. There were many that came alone too. From the young school children to the old. If u saw the sight..it was kinda touching. During the service..i could see a few that teared up, especially during the 1min silence. If u noticed..there were white orchids provided. I saw a women who actually recited a prayer when she was placing the flower back to the table.. Not many did this.
I was supposed to be the OIC contingency force (QRF) for the day..basically to wait for unexpected events (but planned) to happen. But like NDP..it was kinda of fun to volunteer to usher the crowd in and out. Hahaha..please dun say i seek enjoyment from this mournful event coz for us as people on duty..we burn our weekends to facilitate this event..we feel the grieve like others do too..which is why we are happy to carry out our duties.
Hmm..another moment i enjoyed in life have passed. What i re-learnt today was confidence. I nearly forgot the taste of it. Sometimes..its not about how much u know how to do things but how confidently u do it. Many a times..people take advantage of this situation in which many a times..blinds people. There is a great human tendency to look up to the more confident (even though he lacks depth in knowledge). Confidence naturally incites trust and believe. It is a balance that one needs to achieve to be successful. Trust is meant to be gained and maintained. U need confidence and competence to bring u through.
I realise i lack both confidence and competence. I kinda blew the trust people placed in me..sometimes. But not again..conciously lar! Cant please everyone u see! It's a sort of life long resolution. The other key thing is focus. Remember some time when u wanted something so so badly that your only focus was to achieve it? Its the same theory..many failed great leaders have it. They could maintain this tunnel of concentration on their focus to achieve success. But why did they fail..becos thru this tunnel too..they shut themselves out from their surroundings. So how do we do it (Maintain focus and also presence of the surrounding)? Im still grappling with it..But to realize that u r in a situation is the 1st step to change it..Let's try and see whether it works.
May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...
**Aniwae to all my luved ones..(Family, Naj and all those who have been my frens or regarded as a fren even for a moment)...This is part of the prayer i recite for u before i sleep.**
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