A bid to keep to my 2010 new year's resolutions...

Its now exactly 15hrs before the coming of the H-Hour..

OPS MAMA BELIT..


The vZOJ is to conduct a solo evening assault and disrupt mission on RANI SECTOR, on 30 1700HR NOVEMBER 2005, MGR 6876 7742 (NUS MPSH-2A) with no support.

He will be dropped into the FEBA line at 1200hrs and walk into Black Land. Time to arrive at FUP is 30 1640HR NOVEMBER 2005. Final 'MENTAL' prep to be conducted there and vZOJ will form up at the SL, 30 1650hrs.

It will be a solo assault and disrupt mission, radio silence to be maintained at ALL times unless to report codeword n password, and a NO-DUFF situation calls for radio silence to be broken. Only mode of transport is by land via two-wheeler, aka DonKY. Maximum penetration for DonKY to be at FEBA line. After which, after End Mission..DonKY will be able to penetrate into newly acquired area.



CODE and PASSWORDS / TIMINGS
1. BLUE : Arrive at PZ / 30 1200HR
2. McCHICKEN : Start Movement Phase to FEBA / 30 1615HR
3. BLACK : Arrive at FEBA LINE / 30 1630HR
4. McNUGGET : Arrive at FUP / 30 1640HR
5. McDIPPER : Arrive at SL / 30 1650HR
6. BIGMac : H-HOUR (Commence Assault on RANI SECTOR) / 30 1700HR
7. FoldOVER : END MISSION / 30 1930HR

OPS MAMA BELIT OPS ORDER..Brief one..any qns gentlemen?



May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Had a day and nites out with the dangdut gals..(there are guys!!)

Went to watch the so-called BIMBOTIC SHOW, mmm..what's the title, is it Just Like Heaven? I guess it is..its the one with Reese Witherspoon. Well, not bad..the comedy parts were quite hilarious but the sad part were not enuf of a tear jerker. Storyline, altho expectable, has a slightly intellectual twist to it somewhere..watch to find out ok!

After which, we went to the Makan House, made somewhat a BIG loop to get there! Hahah..needed to look for an ATM too..had to look high and low for one BUT it was made more efficient with me opening my mouth to ask for directions. Spoke Tamil to an old Indian security guard as i noticed he was reading the Tamil Murasu..WAHAHA! Found one..wanted to ask Bubz whether she wanted me to draw out extra la..den i accidentally clicked on her house number..her nenek picked UP! Was sooo SHOCKED that i just put it down!! Hahaha...walked back and we watched soccer at the same time while eating. Hmmm..lemon chicken..SEAFOOD..and pineapple rice. BOMBED my budget for this week! haiz...its oryt soldier...Singapore won 1-0 but they were still knocked out of the competition as Indonesia also won. Had to clinch top two position, Singapore is 3rd...haiz...but at least today they played better football than the other 3 matches which seemed so lacklustred that even my nenek got PISSED OFF! Hahaha..dun play play hor! She watched soccer even when Singapore was in Malaysian League ok..

Well, then we proceeded to Samar..for THEM to Sheesha. Have i ever said..I CANT SHEESHA..why?? Cos i would get headache and i cant sleep afterwards!! Tried that in KL with my cuzzins and sister, who are into sheesha, and that resulted in Ali and me, not sleeping the entire night..it was stuck in our noses!!! (the smell) Sheesha-ed till ard 9.30 i guess, then proceeded home.

Hmmm...well, got to know the dangdut gals better abit. PL, whom i never hung out before, HX, Syika, Mimi(Fahmy) and Bryan. Of course, Bubz...hahah..looney bunch! PL sounds like a minah when she speaks..her english so tainted wih Malay accent even though she's chinese. She's casual and open..and crazy! Ahaha..HX was quiet thruout.. the rest were as per normal..

However, while i was doing my maghrib prayers at Sultan Mosque, i suddenly had memory flashes of my Atuk. I became sort of teary..my atuk..who loved us so much. Sultan Mosque was a mosque he'd often bring me to for Friday prayers. Den we would go Islamic or Zam Zam to buy food back for nenek and Ain back home..also for those ppl who were still staying wif them back den. That area brings back memories.. He brought me to the barber, those back-alley kind, small one-seater. He told me that he would bring me to a special barber, got air-con..HAHAHA! I clearly remembered that the barber was toking to my grandpa that starfruit juice is good for soothing sore throat. Dunno why i remembered that..

My atuk is one who likes to travel, maybe i got that trait from him..actually yah, maybe. He can go out jalan2 alone also..hahaha..Always brings us to West Coast Park, the old one back den, alot of trees..go cycle and play playground..i was very naughty back den. EXTREMELY naughty..hehe..he bought for me bicycles. I remember that time, my old bicycle the tyre punctured..old liao..single geared bike. Den he brought me to a shop in clementi and we bought a new bike..blue colour mountain bike. Nenek always disturbed me with the phrase.."Cucu Tok! Cucu Tok.." Those were the times...till his passing away which left me with remorse and regret. The blame i forever carry..i still tear up if i think of him..a religious man, a caring grandfather, thrifty(although certain times i tot of his actions as stingy, but he was never calculative on us and he never fails to donate to the needy..) A man of principles..and a man who taught me a lot.

U have passed me, us for 7 years now. Did you noe i persevered in JC with u in mind..not anyone else..U Atok..when i got retained..i had this deep desire to pursue my design calling in poly but i remembered nenek saying how u wanted Ain n me to go to Uni..and the only sure way i knew of back den was through A' levels..i fought on. When i prayed.. have all my loved ones in my prayer..n u..i seldom forgot. U seldom apprear in my dreams..once..but u were angry..u didnt tok to me..n i realise i had to change then..i was deteriorating. Sometimes forget my bearings..my roots but seldom do i lose it all..this burden i once carried is now shared by two. He has never seen u before tho..But i never once believed that only the guys play a part in bringing glory to the family..never..all of us do.

I miss u..


Hmm...
I received two responses to buy my donkey so far..but quite quiet. Hmmm...should i or should i not sell it. But since im like decided liao..SELL ok. If by Dec 1st i dun get a solid response..i sell it to shop but minimum 1000. If not..hmm...dunno lar.

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Just came back from dinner..late dinner after exams. Anita invited us (me n ali..) along with faisal aman to clementi to eat together..aniwae its her birthday la..haha..she's only 20!! My God..kids..n im 22 turning 23..haiz..we had late dinner at clementi pizza hut la..kaO!!! Babat siol..but it was a session of CRAP CRAP CRAP and FUN! Hahah..exam de-stresser for all 4 of us..they had 2 exam papers in a day..while me n ali just ended ours at 7pm..haiyo..

I am done with my Singapore Studies..so far..tink this is THE WORST..but hey...its over..I HOPE I DUN HAVE TO REPEAT THIS!! Hahah...came out a question that i didnt spot for the compulsory question so i had to basically order one-time 84mm section (An army infantry company's biggest firepower..) to blast through the question and also the paper since i got a few more HEAT (high explosive armour 'tembus'-ing) rounds with me...Hahah..

But mm..now i have 6 days before the battle at the Indian Tamil Nadu border against the Tamil Tigers..which subsequently my team of me n the dangdut gals, will be air-dropped into the Straits of Malacca to battle with the malay pirates..

Well...3 papers down..2 to go...

"NEXT!!"

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Once upon a time, there was a teacher and his student lying down under a big tree near a big grass area.
Then, suddenly, the student asked the teacher,

Student : Teacher, I'm confused, how can we find our soul-mate? Can you please help me?
Teacher : (Silent for few second, than he answer) Well, it's a pretty hard and easy question.
Student : (Thinking hard) Ha???
Teacher : Look on that way, there are a lot of grass there, why don't you walk there but please never walk backward, just walk straight ahead. On your way, try to find a beautiful grass and pick it up then give it to me. But just one.
Student : Well, ok then... wait for me... (walked straight ahead to the grass field).

A few minutes later...

Student : I'm back.
Teacher : Em, well I don't see any beautiful grass on your hand.
Student : On my journey, I found few beautiful grass, but I thought that I would find a better one, so I didn't pick it up. But I didn't realize that I'm at the end of the field, and I hadn't picked up any. Cause you told me not to go back, so I didn't go back.
Teacher : That's what happened in real life.

What is the message of this story?
* Grass - is people around you
* Beautiful Grass - is people that attract you
* Grass Field - is time
* In looking for your soulmate, please don't always compare and hope that there will be a better one. By doing that, you'll waste your lifetime, cause remember "Time Never Goes Back".


May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

U come out of your mom's birth canal.. LIFE presents ur parents with a menu..

LIFE: "What would u like for him Ma'am, Sire..?"
PARENTS: "If only he can be someone clever..excel in studies..be a doctor..rich.."
LIFE: "Well, that can be arranged..make him dumb and be a follower. He will not fall so easily.."

I guess that's what life said..

People lead life with a preconception, maybe a empirically based one that LIFE offers one choices in life that comes in a package. U got a package based on 'rates of skin colour'..'based on academic achievements'..'on family wealth'.. and that u need to be able to qualify for each package..that if u don't..u never get what u want.

My thoughts? Well, i one can..i feel that the questions should be asked.
"Well life..what are u offering me?"
"U can't give me this? WHY?"
"Well..i want it..how can i get it?"
"Still can't..how can i go about it?"
"What does it take?"
"Well..screw u..i'm going for it.."

We cannot just simply resign to fate when life hadn't ended yet..fate is something of reminiscence and should not EVER be applied in a lifetime..u wun noe..things which u say myt not be fated ysterday myt happen tomoro..for certain things la..but u cannot blame it all on fate. U have a hand in destiny..because, conciously..u made ur decisions based on whatever ability u had.

So i cant simply believe that one has to resign to his so-called destinies.."When people tell me not to dream so high..dun try so hard lest u fail..people will laugh la..or people will tink u're stupid la...and all the "people WILL say stuffs..." Yes..image is important..but if u have principles in ur life that is foundation to progression n u noe it..hold on to it..

People will ALWAYS talk about anything..anything that is DIFFERENT attracts attention..gossips and bad-mouth. But everyone thought einstein was crazy..that galilaeo had to be hanged for blesphemy. New discoveries WILL oppose old ones..and if u sight is tainted with emotional ties of old beliefs that u urself dun understand..u fall back..sometimes..since is not really correct as it is based on findings..experiments n datas with knowledge based at that point of time. As time passes..knowledge widens..n new discoveries appear..u have to be critical but u cannot be a dumb follower.

Back to my point of creating ur OWN life menu..tink of what u really want. Find a GOAL big enuf to drive u forward..identify principles that can bring u der..(good ones..) and hold on to it...be adaptive n creative(within laws). Failure comes more often that success but success..as elusive as it is..if u deserve it..it stays..

My turn to try..

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

I got this from a fren..in my email..it sounds good..we can talk about this..any comments?


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A Nice Article about Love:
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I once had a friend who grew to be very close to me. Once when we were sitting at the edge of a swimming pool, she filled the palm of her hand with some water and held it before me, and said this: "You see this water carefully contained on my hand? It symbolizes Love."

This was how I saw it: As long as you keep your hand caringly open and allow it to remain there, it will always be there. However, if you attempt to close your fingers round it and try to posses it, it will spill through the first cracks it finds.

This is the greatest mistake that people do when they meet love...they try to posses it, they demand, they expect... and just like the water spilling out of your hand, love will retrieve from you.

For love is meant to be free, you cannot change its nature. If there are people you love, allow them to be free beings.

Give and don't expect.
Advise, but don't order.
Ask, but never demand.

It might sound simple, but it is a lesson that may take a lifetime to truly practice. It is the secret to true love. To truly practice it, you must sincerely feel no expectations from those who you love, and yet an unconditional caring."

... Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take; but by the moments that take our breath away.....

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A Donkey in the well:
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One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway; it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey. He invited all his neighbors to come over and help him. They each grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well.

At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement, he quieted down. A few shovel loads later, the farmer looked down the well, and was astonished at what he saw.

As every shovel of dirt hit his back, the donkey did something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up. As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up.

Pretty soon, everyone was amazed, as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and trotted off.

The Moral:

Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a stepping stone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up!

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less

Haha..ECONS is over..2 down..3 to go!

Well..econs? How?

I felt like begging just now after times up!! Doesn't it always happen that way.. U have this question where u spend 5-10mins crackin' ur brain up to figure how to do it..and suddenly when u FINALLY figure out how to do it..the invigilator says "TIMES UP..PULL DOWN YOUR PANTS!" ...Oops..no..PUT DOWN i mean..

Isn't it horrendously frustrating?!!

I felt like beggin'!! Altho it was just 2 pathetic marks..WHAT IF I FAILED by 2 freakin' marks?! Hahaha...but overall i think this paper not as bad as previous years. I tried to do the past 3 sem's paper..all worse than this!

I dunno..WAS i preped for this paper? 2days to prep..plus 2yrs of backgrd..maybe enuf to make me pass but HELL i dun wanna just pass. I plan to major in ECONS..if pass only like tak pro lar.. HAHA.. well..now am i expecting too much?!!! WAHAHA!!

But well..NEXT!

ARRRGH!!!! I have created an econs book of DEF..

I remember my book of DEFs for physics in jC...the most comprehensive all available defs inside..altho not so powerful la..but haha..wadever u need is inside!!

Well..now that i somewhat done with revision..im gonna move on to doin papers.. my free time..guess i have to revise SSA1201..if not that subject will be screwed! After SSA..i have one week to prepare for my battle with the Tamil Tigers and 2 days after that will be the Malay pirates..so i have time to hit the CP (command post), go back to the planning board and do my OPs orders and planning..

In Singapore slang...

"Oi soldier! Battle haven't over leh..FIGHT LAR!! Continue..wanna die har?!"

contrary to what is portrayed in American war movies..which they will say somewhat like "Soldiers..the battle aint over yet till the fat lady sings..carry on..fight with all that u've got and give those B**t**ds what they deserve!!"

See the diff? Hahaha..slight swing of topic..

-POOF!!-

Man i LOVE kidz!! NOT in a paedophilic sort of way u goodoo!! (Only FYQ tinks im paedophilic!)

I went to help out at Al-Zuhrah kindergarten graduation cum Hari Raya gathering for the kidz and their parents. Redha asked for this favour quite some time ago..her sis, Kak Sa'adah needed help..shortage of manpower. It was held just now at the Jurong East Sports Complex..u noe, the one with the big swimming facility!

There were tons of energetic and enthusiastic little tots and luckily not many cried. As far as i remember..only got one..who wanted his mom. The rest were just bundles of energies..as they await their turn to perform..they danced and sang along by the side as their friends performed before them..making a din of a noise somewhat at backstage..(it was more of side-stage actually..) The FUN was der, ryt before they start performing as they are soooo enthusiastic..later i upload the pics!

The was a funny incident on one of the performance. One little gal..in the middle of her class performance..(they did a rendition of 'That Thing u do..') and she was on of the dancers...dunno..i guess she got so stage-fright that she jus turned towards the side and walked out in a daze...den all her teachers persuaded her to continue and still in a daze..she went back to perform. Guess she's not up to the pressures of being in the falshlights huh?!

Well..the kids..what else can i say except that they had an enormous amount of energy to continue their performance till 10pm. Its near their BEDTIME!! I was soo sleepy and hungry that i sneaked off to buy KFC and eat at the staircase alone. And Red complained later that i didnt jio her along as she was starving too!! Hahaha.. When i went with her..the KFC was closed...hahaha.. HUNGRY RED..

The event which turned a bit draggy ended at last at the peak of my exhaustion..(i slept at 4 and had bubz wake me up at 6.30 remember?) Well..i rushed to pack up..stacking chairs at the speed of a torchlight and moving barricades with the strength of an ant personified! Had it done in CHOP-CHOP time..

Haiz..cos i need to ruch home to mugg since tomoro i'll be out with the Eagle specs to jalan raya. Haha..how to pass econs?!!! Can can..

I think i have to sell off my love..my DONKEY liao..after calculating and doing my accounts as well as include insurance rise expectations..i tink i have to.. SORRY MY LOVE..i will ALWAYS REMEMBER U..if i sell u..

*tears...

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

I am 2 hours away from my first paper...

Thanks for waking me up..u sound like my mother!! Hahaha.greatly appreciate it.

My eyes are like burning now thanks to the 04:00am sleep 3hrs ago! Damn u eyes..BETTER NOT sleep during the paper later!

And i really hope Socrates, PLato, Mills, Descartes and Berlin don't hold against me all that i have said AGAINST them..i'm sorry for all those insults and vulgarities i hurled onto ya during the course of this module and i'm sure u guys are VERY forgiving ppl...

BOTAK!! No no no...i was JoKING!! Sorry! Hahaha...good luck Faizola!

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Well...

I was actually in a PISSED-OFF mood but after riding i'm ok..must be the carbon monoxide in the air..

WHY was i pissed? Haiz...i'll just give u the gist of it..

WHY must he keep picking on my mistakes? THIS never do properly, THAT i did wrongly..WHY cant i do this..WHY is this like that.. Man..this just reminds me of that song "perfect" is it..the one that goes..

"Hey dad look at me..
Na na nana nana..

I'm sorry i can't be..PERFECT.."

And the steely part is..i tink i'm gonna grow up to be like HIM as much as i try to steer away from the bad parts. Haiz.. sometimes u try so hard not to be like ur parents that u become like them huh? To those parents out there..seem familiar?

I jus want him to appreciate all that i do good..isn't there anything that i did that he can be proud of and openly show it to me?? If there isn't then tell me cos i need to know!! Im frustrated out here dad!! I rush to nenek's house everyday to water the plants in between schedule and u chide me for not taking the clothes out of the washing machine. (I will do it tomoro..if i waited..i WILL be late for stuffs!!) I DIYed by Donkey so proudly and he chided the sharp edges that i have not yet sawn off. I sweep the floor every 2-3 days when nenek was away but u had to pick on the days that i didnt sweep..flowers DROP EVERYDAY u noe!

I guess the only love that i am deprived of is the one from my dad. Dun get me wrong.. My dad is not the type of person who abandons his family or is irresponsible. He's a good dad..he does housework and he's studious and religious and all..but like most typical malay dad..he lacks the show of love. He was very strict to us when we were young and i appreciate it but i guess..im just deprived of his affection maybe..HAHAHA..but i dun noe how i wld perform as a dad..

Well..after riding back..i feel alright. Better..not as pissed but i feel exhausted today..dunno why. Head heavy with thoughts that burden even my light-hearted soul.

I guess i need a break..

Its 03:11am in the MORNING!!

My computer just died while i was doing stuffs cos the adapter got super HOT! U noe why?! I accidentally placed my pillow over it..it was on my bed and ya..heat cant escape..so I guess i didnt need to use the stove to boil my vegetable soup..So i placed it uder the aircon..switched it on..out the fan in front of it and let it cool for 10mins.. WALAA..it worked.

BUT..the WORST was this freakin printer. I brought over the printer from my house to here since it wasnt used anyway..an exerpt from a convo...

ME: Ain, izal bawak printer lexmark tu gi rumah nenek tau kalo kau tak pakai lagi..
(I bring over that printer to granny's place if ur not using anymore ok?)

AIN (my elder sis..): Bawak arh. Tapi ink dah habis tau. (Ink no more..)

ME: OK..jus replace can right? (I didnt say this..i said in malay but im lazy to translate liao!)

AIN: Can..but expensive u noe..the colour ink costs ard 60 bucks...

ME: HUH?!!! So if i buy black n colour.. Thats..(calculating..) 3 months of food allowance for me!! 120 bucks?!

AIN: U can try get the jiplak (pirated..) one la..cheaper..

So today..i went to meet fyq and azack at SIM to eat..so i singgah (hopped on..) to the bookshop there..asked the lady..she pointed me to the inks and happily i bought la..little did i noe when i got home..i realized that it IS NOT AN INK CARTRIDGE!!! I had to MANUALLY fill in it...kao!!! LECEH siol...(troublesome sia..)

Haiz..so i did it..now ink stains all over my fingers and its so freakin hard to remove la..but den..it myt mean that the ink good quality la..waterproof sey! WeeWeeet!! Den..i needed to download the printer driver cos i dun have the driver installation CD. Computer lagged giler summore..dunno why..ALWAYS happens when u are in dire straits! Well..den my computer died maah..haiz... after that ok la..i went straight to Lexmark's homepage..short n simple. But now..THE INK CAN'T COME OUT! WAdddA HELL?! Ampaksia...

Haiz..(in desperation..tone of voice dying..) I just wanna print...thats all... alaaaaaar...haiz...my DONKEY cant go out cos the mudguard n license plate haven't fix..printer creating problems.. cant i have peace?!! Ishk3...exams nyer pasal la..ALL UR FAULT NAJEE... Hahaha...

Haiz...well, anyway..fyq, azack n me toked about our old time plan..our cafe.. hahaha..glad that dream hasnt died out..can put that together wif me n ali's plan..

And Canoe Polo training..we had an unofficial game wif the senior gals..a graduated guy player played for them...well..game scoreline? 2-2..i scored the 2nd goal..yeah!! But..there's a lot we need to do for defence..attack also la..but since we can score two goals..the problem is how to NOT let in 2 goals..i guess we lack game experience..we only played 2 matches and its all in one day!! At least when we do these small games..we see our weakness and get to focus on ironing them out during training. SRRR competition coming up and the preliminaries begin on the 25th of DEC. Our team's (year 1 plus Dommy boy) focus to to win a match a time..maybe we will reach the finals. But its a national open if im not wrong and the teams are not like those sch sch team.. The seniors say usually when yr 1, they get thrashed 17-0, 12-0 those sort of scoreline. I hope that our team never gets beaten. We just need to do it..TRUE to our team motto..SOMEWHAT UNBEATABLE.

And after training..i walked all the way home. 45mins plus like that..went 7-11 to get my fav strawberry milk..and reflected on stuffs. On my actions and decisions..and on what i should do. Aiyo...im also in a dilemma...3J...how?

Well..i need to go..its 03:39am now..

I tink i'll go to sch later to print. DAMN U PRINTER!!! die! die!!

WHAT the HELL!?! I think im SCREWED from the navel!!

I made a new RESOLUTION...

My PLEDGE:

1. That my studying in NUS will never just BE ABOUT GRADES..
2. It will be for the GOOD cause of the GREATER GOOD.
3. That i pledge to DO MY UTMOST in every module that i take..
4. And that EVERY MODULE i decide on has a purpose..
5. I will not blame circumstances if i fail..
6. And take every FAILURE as that of MINE..
7. But I SHALL achieve my goal and maintain its very foundation that made it SUCCESSFUL.

My GOALS:

1. VZOJ
2. Happy family
3. Family Corporate
4. The home of our dreams
5. Be fit and healthy
6. Be an educator
7. Be active

Me and my cuzzin toked abt how we wanted our family to be in the future. On how we are gonna live..how it is supposed to be.

Well..we reflected on how we are to achieve all these and well..there was a few revelations and a few things we knew we had to do. Seems easy but it should be tough since not many ppl achieve it. Well..it takes God to make the world go round..contrary to wad ppl say..("money makes the world go round..") Try to use ur money to change the spin of the earth!

And i knew i had to make a SERIOUS attitude change. I was TOO PASSIVE in life..taking things in my stride and accepting things as they were. Well..i don't think it will get our dreams anywhere..even if it did..the foundation might not be strong. Will not last...have u seen the plight of those American Lottery winners who go from pauper to millionaires to demented? A LOT of this cases happen..why? Cos..they had no financial intelligence to back them up and keep the wealth growing.

Me and Faz is gonna develop our strenghts and our focus is now on our collective dreams. If one dream is not strong enuf..maybe 2 dreams will pull it through.

BUT I STILL WANNA BE A MADRASAH P.E. TEACHER!!

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

I'm touched..

Out of my inefficiency in doing stuffs, my dad took an initiative to make a number plate for me to replace my broken n missing one. Awwww...thanks Abah! But then, the problem is..yesterday, i told myself i have to be more effecient and hence i went to make one too..and now im syuck with two plates!! But naah..i'm gonna hang one in my room in case it breaks off again..so..still..THANX ABAH!!

Today Mumma's birthday. HAPPY 47th BIRTHDAY MUMMA!! Me n Ain went to the shop in clementi to get a cake. Hahaha..she waited to 45mins for me cos of the delay..traffic was bad and i took bus..slow buggers! At last we decided on the Fruit Cake cos the rest were rummified..except the fruited cakes. Haiz..but hey! Its not bad u noe..tasted lemony esp the cream..thin cream somemore..not baad..

Went wif Syika and Bubz to Queensie to get quotes from printers for Salam Magazine. We managed ok and even learnt something new. There is a difference between RGB print and CMYK printing..(those of u well versed in printers and inks should find this familiar..they are colours.) and the link with them and digital vs. offset printing. Digital printing is fast and more economical for print quantities of 1000 or less. Offset printing takes abit longer but is more economical for print quantities cumulating in more than 1000. So, we learnt something new. The uncle also very honest that his shop doesn't do digital and yet he doesn't mind sharing knowledge with us. But he'll link up with someone who does offset printing and send us the quotes tomorrow. And the rest of queensway doesn't do magazine printing.

We went to IKEA and browsed. Damned..my room or my bike or my class 3 license?

Syika was in a photographic mood today. Didnt shun away from the photograph and took a lot of retarded Bubz photos..hahaha..Kids..mmm..

Nenek is back at her home. She seems much fitter. Walks better and i'm going to bring her exercise abit everyday. We going pasar tomoro and maybe the park behind. Get her to be more active but slowly la.

Gonna study my philo lar..

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

I just came back from hari raya house visiting with the NUS silat ppl...

We ate a lot!! Ate at ALL houses except Kamal's..luckily la his parents not home..haha..22 went..so little..which caused us problems having to pay at the end cos th booking of the bus for 12 hours costs us $420..n the ppl who go halfway only wanna pay half..haiz..later they will deconflict this matter la..

I need a pet cat..or kittens..miss kikies..haiz.. Tadi at Shida's house her white cat sooo cute and furry..so white..the name pun snow la! Played with her..she got infatuation with the tissue paper la..so i made her jump and jump for it!

Bus journey was havoc..put malay guys together and u get a vagabond boyband! Hmmm... maybe our standard not there lah but hey..we can sing! We think we sing ok so hmm..ur comments DON'T MATTER!! Hehehe.. We sang the whole way! The gals thot we were hyper..we thot we were normal..others thot we were simply shiok sendiri..well.. we're goooood..

Well..im sleepy and tired and full..

I need to sleep..kecik jus told me my philo final exams is this friday and damn i thot it was much later..so im somewhat screwed yet confident..so jadik confidently screwed? Noooo..."confidently i will screw that paper!!" Hahah..

Ciao..

Haha..aniway..one of the house we went was exactly one floor under ali's nenek Sanah house..heheh..we went to see her a while..damn its a small world! And Zakaria the bravo armskoteman is Daud's bro!! Hahah..recognised him from the family pic..haiz.. small world..

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Well..

I have been really rushing these days..

I had Tamil oral exam today! Hahaha...got bubz to practise my oral with me while we had a brain block doing MS essay. Practised only on words regarding Animals and Birds as well as Days and Hours..haiz..really last minute due to things coming headlong on the way..

The Oral..

When i reached at Dr S.P. Thinnappan's office..Zarif was already there preparing..she was sitting on the chair outside the office reading the passage. And she looked sooooo stressed!! Her hair all over the head in a mess and face crumpled! Hahah...my turkish fren and partner in Tamil-Dumbness...heheh..

Well i was like.."Hey Zarif..How? Hard?" She jus looked at me..squinted her eyes and crumpled her expressions and said "Man..this is difficult (Dutch accent..) I cant understand a single thing!!"

Well..after that..my turn..I got the "Kumar" passage which i read before in class so it wasn't that difficult. We had to translate sentences also and i was like..."HUUH?!" when my teacher asked me to tok..Hmmm..he must have thot i was real dumb. There was this question..which i interpreted as "Why do u come for tamil classes?" and i answered confidently.."Cos i like Tamil Language.." but he looked wierdly at me and asked again..i answered the same answer again but slowly..den he spoke in english.."Why didn't u attend tamil class that day??" Hahaha...dumb!!

But he said i did well and asked me to take the 2nd level module next semester. I'm considering..if u wanna do something myt as well do it all the way ryt..but the assignment weightage is suffocating! Everyweek the homewerk takes me at least 5hours to complete!!! (Maybe its becos im dumb at constructing sentences..) But i spend my sunday nites n mornings battling Tamil Tigers!!

Canoepolo is getting real fun too..started playing more games and can sense the team bonding amongst the yr 1s getting quite good..understanding and awareness of each others positioning and playing style also there..and sorry if i am too vocal guys! That's how i am during games..

But hey..exams near la..need to enjoy mugging. Bubz..thanx for the choc and for practising Tamil wif me! Syika..thanks for ur hard werk in MS essay! Najee..happy 22nd birthday pal!!

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

I FEEL LIKE SHIT!!

Well..sometimes..

In a true mat-styled accent..that "sometimes" has been made a trademark in true sense..losing all bearings of its true meaning..OK..im blabbering in denial!!

Hahaha...but actually i feel happy. If the one she is with now is much better..(which was what i prayed for at that time when i made my decision to stamp my foot down..)..i will be more that elated. Well..she had moved on..when's my turn?

Anyway..seeing all these, im sort of relieved that this saga is over. I sincerely hope this kind of thing..(this ending..) doesn't happen again. Was i dumb?? Am i wierd to listen to that calling in my heart? (U sure a not Najee?!) I tink im just human to do this..irrationality is a trait of humans..well..

"I hope u'll be blessed and that i was God's plan in His chart of life for u..that i was not a waste in all this..that i mattered.. I pray that what we had between us..what i had taught u, u'd still keep in mind and not jus let it go to waste due to emotions. I will always treasure that short moment we had together. Best of luck and i'll always be around.." Those words that i refused to say to you..i hope u understand that i meant good..that i was not n never wanted to be a hypocrite. Those feelings i had was true..what u wanted of me..if i were to give it to u will not be. I hope he can give it to u sincerely.. -This is for Ida..ciao..

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