A bid to keep to my 2010 new year's resolutions...

Mayday Mayday....

"two-niner to three-niner...cut radio silence.. over."

One of the greatest battle we expect has been fought and done with. We are in defence at Usop Locality [MGR 310040]. It has been more than 2 days of 1/3 alerts and all out defence. Its been raining arty shells and hot fiery lead. My men are down to half but the fire in their eyes still look as red as freshly slewn meat.

At just after dawn tomorrow...we expect the last of the execrable enemies to attack. They always strike at the change of nature's shifts, when the moon makes way for the sun and the body doesnt know whether it should be up or asleep..confused.

But the battle of tomorrow shall yield its reward...sanity and ermm..utility?? Temporary freedom... time and age are procyclical... thus it also signals for the end of 1 term..a disappointing semester by far.

Hopefully this disappointment will spur the heart of me...

I thought the future can spur me on...i can see it, feels like im touching it. But the folly of my heart and mind takes away the potential of today. The cost of today against the price of tomorrow. Opportunity costs of playing today are the things u could have tomorrow...

I now see the light in Economics... so this semester is not such a waste.

But why must i always learn this way? (the hard way..) What others learn just by visualising, i have to learn by doing and feeling. It takes multiplied efforts to yield the same result or less. Would i have chosen a different path if i had the ability to go back to the past? But then..it wouldnt be today anymore.

I wouldnt have u...

a conversation from one of my fav movies.. a prayer for tomorrow...

[Moore and Geoghegan a prayer before leaving for Vietnam]

Lt. Colonel Hal Moore: Our Father in Heaven, before we go into battle, every soldier among us will approach you each in his own way. Our enemies too, according to their own understanding, will ask for protection and for victory. And so, we bow before your infinite wisdom. We offer our prayers as best we can. I pray you watch over the young Jack Geoghegan. That I lead into battle. You use me as your instrument in this awful hell of war to watch over them. Especially if they're men like this one beside me, deserving of a future in your blessing and goodwill. Amen.

2nd Lieutenant Jack Geoghegan: Amen.

Lt. Colonel Hal Moore: Oh, yes, and one more thing, dear Lord, about our enemies, ignore their heathen prayers and help us blow those little bastards straight to Hell. Amen.

I am in NUS Science Library... No, i wasnt posing as a Science student but i am here because Diach is here to study 2102 and i am here to squeeze whatever info she noes about 2102.

"Do you know there are people with XXXX Chromosomes??"

Well, then dey must be extra pms-sy! Hahaha... Or either that, they're blonds. But i was watching "Beautiful Mind"..the one about John Nash, the man behind the Game Theory, my favourite topic in Economics so far....and in Beutiful Mind, John Nash struck the idea of the Nash Equilibrium after chancing upon a beautiful blonde girl at a bar.

Scenario; There were 5 girls including the blonde standing by the counter. They were looking at the guys at Nash's table. They were Nash's schoolmate and they were affixed upon the girls, especially the blonde. They were quoting Adam Smith's theory about individuals having to be selfish but then, an idea struck Nash and he quipped that Adma Smith needed to revise his theories. He concluded that if all 4 of them ignored the blonde and went for her 4 friends instead, each of them will most likely be able to get a girl, ie. get laid, that night...Rather than all 4 fighting over a blonde and only one would win and the other 3 lost all.

Conclusion; See? Blondes are useful.

Hahaha....that was just a situation to maximise my time taking a break subject to the amount of torture im going through while revising for my economics exams. Arrrrrrrghhhhh!! And im hungry...

Im just gonna wait for her to finish copying my notes and we'll end our misery here and then.

I've always known how much i meant to her...but this knowledge and empathy can never come close to actually feeling what she feels. Its never possible to really feel what one person feels towards you. Im sure, she'll never feel how i feel too. Its how individuals are made that we are truly unique. Despite this, we just know deep inside...we mean the world to each other..and more.

Its really crazy what these feelings can do to you. What it makes u go through, what it makes u feel. How at times it can drive u to the galaxy, being amongst stars..and how sometimes, it feels like being flattened upon by the weight of the earth.. It lets u feel almost the widest spectrum of emotions you can possibly feel... Hahaha..like McDonalds always says...."im Lovin' it"

Mama...i keep it safe and secure.


Well, yesterday too, we had somewhat like a "joyride". Sent may adik and hazimah to Amoy Quee Camp at 6am. Went to pick Kamie up at her place at 7.30..
Went back to my place to pack and pick fazli up who was still sleeping!! Bathed and the 3 of us then went to Al-Ameen for breakfast. After breakfast, we headed to sch for exams..den we went to pick my mom up at her workplace. DEn my sis called and asked to be picked up. Faz dropped 100m from my sis place..but that decision caused 30mins of mayhem when we got a merry go round at town as many places were 1 way streets and that cars dun give way to you when u want to change lanes to turn left or right! Blardy drivers....My mom thought she could reach home at 6pm..ended up, we reached at 7.30pm...ALL FAZLI's fault!! Hahahahaa....and Kamie was under immense pressure being the navigator, holding the street directory. It was made worse cause of te rain, and we couldnt see the road signs well. BUT...we reached home safe.

Me and Kamie den went to KAP Macs to study..only to realise, i had left my wallet in Hitam..we studied till we lost, sleeping was a more profitable option.. and at 10, we went home. I was in 154 until someone sat beside me and called out my name. Turned around...it was Hidayat. Haahahaa...He's in SIM! Talked till i went down at the wrong busstop..alighted too early so i had to take 15mins to walk home. Reached home to Syarah irritating me...till i sleep.


BUT the good thing from all this? I woke up to kamie's voice and my nek's jempot2...SEDAAAAAAP(both).



May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

EC3101 - Microeconomic Analysis 2 ; DONE.
TR2202 - Technological Innovation ; DONE.
EC3303 - Econometrics ; 29th / 11 / 2006
EC2102 - Microeconomic Analysis 1 ; 30th / 11 / 2006
GEK1010 - Property Management ; 04th / 11 / 2006

"Yakin...mesti terus yakin... Dengan harapan, pada ketentuan Tuhan."

Seperti Atok yang redha kepada Allah, seperti mereka yang tiada rasa takut kerana Allah akan menjaga mereka yang mencintainya..begitulah harus aku terus yakin.

Aku sangat mengharap bahawa markah CAP aku penggal ini tidak akan membuat markah kesuluruhanku merosot. Aku sangat mengharap ia akan naik, walaupon dengan 0.5 markah. Setiap kemajuan itu penting walaupon ia sekadar menitis..

Penggal ini merupakan yang paling mencabar jika dibandingkan dengan dua penggal yang telah ku lalui. Walaupun begitu..aku masih mengharap agar dapat aku meneruskan sehingga mendapat setidak-tidaknya honours kelas kedua atasan. Aku sedar bahawa aku bukanlah seorang manusia yang cerdik dalam soal pendidikan akademik, tetapi aku juga sedar akan kelebihan lain yang melimpah yang telah dikurniakan kepadaku dari penciptaku. Dengan itu..aku sangat bersyukur. Tetapi aku tetap tidak akan pasrah membuta. Aku akan mencuba..mengusahakan supaya aku tidak lemah di bidang akademik. Penciptaku tidak menciptakan manusia yang tidak berdaya. Setiap kelemahan pasti ada jalan keluar. InsyaAllah...

"Biar menitis, asal tak putus..
Biar sedikit, asal tak pupus..
Biar perlahan, jangan berhenti.."

I have just changed the outlook of my blog.

Depression and boredom drove me to...

Said i will stop at 6pm...now is 8.20pm...have to stop and go back soon. Kamie is shaking her head at this..Wahaha..

I love the new outlook!

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Its a few hours more before the commencement of my first exam paper. i think i feel prepared to at least be able to attempt questions. Scoring on it will be a separate issue and a bonus. HAHA...

Me and Mama are eating YanYan Vanilla flavour now...there's some animal thingy plus their traits written on the biscuit stick. Somebody claims she's a 'chick'...hmmm...and she says im a rabbit! For the fact that rabbits are associated with kinkiness eh?? Hahaha...

I feel totally unprepared for my Econometrics and Macro paper...its not like unconfident unprepared but no-nuts-about-it unprepared!! Im really hoping for a C+ at least for these 2. For my two more theoretical papers, im banking for and A. Pls arh pls arh....

Im PASRAH-ed..im FAT. I cant seem to lose weight even though i've been training everyday and i feel fitter. So luckily Kak Zuhrah gave me leeway to at least lose till 64 before Hanoi. Now, im 66.5....

and just now...at YIH, there were 4 kittens!! 3 blacks and 1 ginger...ooooh man, they remind me so much of kikis...haiz...

I luv that gal..

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Im losing out...its getting very faint now. I cannot see it anymore...

Ya Allah..give me strength, determination, will, courage and support to carry on with my dreams and the pursuance of my goals. Grant me the blessings, benefits and health..happiness and character that you hold highly..I pray that i get the positiveness of my prayers and not the negativities you befall upon people who ask with impure hearts. Let not my family ever feel the what i would not want to feel. Amin.

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

I just finished my last lecture of this sem and im finished!! Darn...one week to go before my first paper....haiz....

Why am i doing Econs again?? I noe....serve me right..But at least this is something in FASS that i want to do. I just got to remember that this is just one phase of my life. I just got to excel in it and then i'll move on...i dun need to do a job that has anything to do with economics... but hey..economics is everywhere..HAHAHA..i just got to learn to be great at it. SIMPLE??

I just ran 10 laps of the stadium. Hahaha...Next year. I am gonna sign up for every damn run organised, e.g, Army Half Marathon, Standard Chartered Marathon, 2nd Link Run...Big Walk?? Hahhaha...can lah! And yes..you are coming along too mama!

Alhamdulillah...so proud of my mama. She persevered to complete that 10-lap run round the stadium with me just now. Even though she went pale and lifeless...especially after the 20 pushups and situps..she never gave up! That is one trait i admire of her.. as feminine as she is, she has the perseverence of a woman. Hmmmm...i tink there's something wrong with my statement. But nevertheless....we are continuing with this routine runs to keep ourselves fit and healthy. Then, insyaAllah we won't have to fork out big money to remedy old-age ailments.....that is the common money-sucker for retiring people!!

And i still like the Audi Q7 Quattro even though it costs $300K! But nevermind...i just want an environementally friendly 7/8 seater!! (Which can speed and accelerate FAST!!! Hahahaha...) Im looking out for the Q7 Hybrid that is under development now. Sounds like a tamiya car...something that runs on electric power while cruising at stable rpms and also while stopping and so on.

I watched "Ripley's Believe it or not" and they aired this guy who engineered a bio-grease run engine van. So FUN! Run out of petrol?? He went to restaurants asking for leftover food grease at their dumps...WAHAHA...his dream?? That one day, all vehicles emit chicken-wing-smelling exhausts gas. COOL!

OK OK..i need to get back to study!

Tata..

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Astargfirullah hal'azimmmmm.....

AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH!!!! Some dumb girl just switched off my laptop plug, forcefully shutting down the laptop while i was working on it. (I did not put in the battery)She wanted to switch off and plug out hers, which was next to mine.. Blardy hell...pretended like nothing happended like that!! ARRRRGHH!! Cheeeeeecken..pinehole! The least she could do is apologize la...abih pretend nothing happened. Did not even bother to look at me. AAAAAAARGH!!!

Astargfirullah hal'azimmmmm.....

K...im done. Haiz......after a long (blardy long) hiatus, i had to come back like this. Too much jalan raya....back to back...every weekend. I managed to lose 2 kg...only to gain back 2 because of 2 days of Raya. I have to resort to Gandhi's diet now. Told nenek this morning to ban curry in the house. Only veggies and boiled food items to be consumed by me......How to lose till 60kg ni?!!!! Tebiat kebabai...

Astargfirullah hal'azimmmmm.....

I have to stop all forms of Raya. TOO MUCH OF IT! At least im done with the last Welfare Committee project of the year. Alhamdulillah...did very well. 32 different people joined in the fun. Went to 9 houses...at least now, me and raiyan's dream to buy our training equipment can be realised! Hoirul has some breathing space in the treasury with the injection of some funds...and yesssah!!! We're gonna play ladders all year long!

Alhamdulillaaaaaah....

And yes...Cikgu Jenon remembers so much details! Hahahaha...shant reveal those here. Its Trade Secret.

Allahu akbar.....

Its exactly 1 month before we fly of to Hanoi. Its my mommy's birthday today! Its gonna be Tim's birthday tomorrow and tomorrow will be 19th!! Hehehehe....gonna hit 20 soon. Next week shall be reading week. Shall treat us to a movie marathon...3 different genres of movies. Try arh.....

MasyaAllah....

I think for now, my stamina has improved...i can complete the entire routine in time. Have to keep focused.....the last hurdle awaits. Sacrificed a lot to wanna lose focus now. Have to lose my tummy...and the bag of rice that im carrying along with me everyday.

Wa'alaikum Salam....

I love u exponentially mama...

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...