A bid to keep to my 2010 new year's resolutions...

A song that i hummed and sung the nite she had blisters and we were walking home barefooted...carefree. Silence that day...(meaning without conversations) etched out a new meaning...

Penawar Rindu

Penawar rindu padamu seorang
Kenapa selalu semangatku dikau puja
Penawar rindu padamu seorang

Resah tak sanggup menanggung di jiwa
Salah tak tahu kasih bermula
( ulang 2X )

Bermula
Peristiwa, dalam ingatan
Kasih tercipta

Penawar rindu padamu seorang

Senyuman kuberi sungguh bermakna
Tetapi sayang kau tak ketahui
( ulang 2X )

Tak ketahui
Hingga ku merana, merajuk hati
Membawa diri

Penawar rindu padamu seorang
Kenapa selalu semangatku dikau puja
Penawar rindu padamu seorang

Im getting OLD.

A friend of mine..JC friend..same age..is now a MOTHER. She recently gave birth to a healthy boy and what does that make me? (US actually..*dear Khalawats..*) UNCLES and AUNTIES!! Haiz...

Here's where the best joke of the month comes! I went back that nite, and told my nenek, "Nek, kawan izal baru bersalin..boy." (My fren just gave birth to a boy) And her eyes opened big and wide..expression? SUPER SHOCKED. Stunned..She exclaimed.."HUH?!! Kawan kau beranak?!" (ur fren gave birth?!!) After 7 seconds, den it dawned upon me that the term 'KAWAN' with me and my grandma refers to Kamilah..Hahahaha...my poor nenek nearly got a shock of her life thinking my matair just gave birth to a boy!! Hahaha...sorry nek! I told her, "HUH!? Takkan la Nur bersalin nek!! Kalau dier yg bersalin lagik best! Tapi izal skarang ngah kener plankung ngan bapak dier!!" When's my turn to rejoice in having a baby??

But the most shocking news of last week came from my OCS buddy..my roommate for 6 months or more.

I sms-ed him, asking where our Ball was held last time..he replied..

"HEY! So you changed your number lah! No wonder couldn't get to you!..."

Turns out..he was trying hard to get to me to invite me for...HIS WEDDING! Darn...he got married on the 24th of June that bugger. At last..but i didnt get to go.. That turned out to be the saddest moment of the week. Not being able to attend your buddy's wedding.

Well, now he's married. Great for him. INsyaAllah i won't miss his open house which will be in ard 2months time. At AMK..At last he gets to move away from Fann Wong. Blardy hell..all 6 months when he slept beside and and also WITH me..(in Taiwan)..he NEVER EVER told me his direct next door neighbour was Fann Wong! Just because he is not interested doesnt mean it doesnt matter! (Actually it doesnt...) Cos he thought i was only into Siti Nurhaliza..HAhaha...

Haiz...so am i old? But im still 18 years OLD...

Another thing is...

Now im the leading scorer in the chartlist!!! Nurse dah kalah rabak!! Yesterday..after so long..i finally stepped into her house. Seeing (and sensing) the environment, it all seems like my coming there was ANTICIPATED. Everyone seemed to be waiting. Hahahaa....the mother (the one who 'invited' me to come cos the father 'dah tanyer' pasal me..) was already in tudung..that is not natural! Nearly everyone came out to salam me..and me to salam them.. in order.. Kamie (she didnt salam me..), THE Dad..followed by Khairi, the Mom, den someone cute and chubby..Afiq! And lastly, Nyai..

Afiq was cute! Noe what he did?? That boy was crawling..YES! Crawling out of the corner to take a peep at me. Hahaha...and all the while, he has sugar crumbs at the side of his mouth. Macam Kakak dier jugak!!! Hahaha...

Den it was the moment i dread...

Just me and her dad in the living room. It wasnt really a moment to be dreaded but one that i gementar lar sikit! Hahaha..it was silent for a while..den i decided to somehow break the ice sikit by asking him a qns..he answered. Den silence again.. He popped me another qns..i answered..and silence again. HAHAHA...luckily Mila came out early!!! Fuuuh...so we went out dah to go look for telekung for this little gal whom we've pledged to fulfil her wish. (cos her wish is for a new set of telekung..awww. The others all wanted barbie dolls and yoyos..BOOOO!!!)

Den after that, Mila's sis...Alea came to join us. It was her birthday too! Hahaha..cute girl..sikit2 mcm kakak dier arh! It was also Alea who was around the other time we went together to pick her mom. I think..boleh click la..it was fun talking to her. Easygoing and natural..which is ALWAYS great.

Hmm..dah la..

So bottomline is, did i fear entering the house? Hmm..

No, i jus didnt know what to expect..but if there is where i have to tread to be able to have blessings to go with my nurse, then there i shall go.. insyallah, one should not fear when one has pure intentions.

Like Ibu said.."Kalo dier sincere, he should not be afraid to come.." (somewhere along that line lah...) diriwayatkan oleh zola..

And LASTLY..Dear Khalawats..if you survive reading till now.. THANK YOU for the voucher. I have just bought myself a casio watch. I think its nice..I had initially wanted a full-metal one but noe was small enough to look good on me. The g-shock ones were nice but my cousin, si Samir tu..is already wearing that same model. Den i saw a very nice metal one with rubber straps! WOOOOOOOOAH! Even Kamie liked it..(dier ckp very manly..) Hehehe..she like, i like..so BUY la! YESSSSSAH....after years of not wearing a watch..im a proud owner of one 'manly' watch! I just cant stop telling the time now..and yes, everytime i look at it..i'll remember my Khalawat geng. THANK YOU!

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

When will all these end? How will it all end?

Tuitions on saturdays are ending soon...which means i can go for NUS Silat trainings for the FIRST TIME ever since ermmm...ermm..last year? HAHAHA....I miss silat trainings in school. The close friends..the fun..the nonsense.. Have i ever told you how Lat and me ever came for training early, went for prayers and actually fell asleep at the prayer mat while waiting for training to start?! And we woke up ard an hour plus after silat started!! STEMEK..."Saper bangun dulu kejot tau!" Yeah RIGHT!! Hahaha..I only attended one and a half training with NUS Silat this sem...Nad and Zahzah pon dah join! YEAY!! Bilar lagik kao nak join Kamie...?

Life in my cave in getting lonely. Side effects of tunggal training kot?

But on the flipside..training at Persisi is getting fun. Training WITH the national team is different. You get to see the 'standard' and it is really an eye-opener. At the start, i was very quiet..hahaha...close clique with NUS people and the ASEAN Uni Games (AUG) team only...but as training goes by, the team started to bond with the national team players. In terms of the sport, you learn a lot from them..they're not so 'sombong' as i thot they seemed to be.. Initially, i thot the way they viewed us were like mcm.."Eh, saper arh budak2 university ni?? Sibok jek..." Hahaha...but some of them actually have a lot of respect for us.. We are in the university and some of them dream of going there but are afraid cos for most sportsmen, academics are not in their niche arena. So Raiyan and me sometimes encourage those who talk to us to dream higher and work harder and not belittle themselves too much.

Being the only AUG team member doing seni..at the start, i was practically lost! Thrown around everywhere...hahaha.. They don't know where to put me, cos at first, they had a dedicated coach in Abg Jasni for the AUG team. But the training for for tanding..so i joined tanding training for a while..FUN giler doks! Must implement at NUS arh.. Den, they pulled me aside and i did my own training supervised by the National team Head Coach Abg Hidayat. He's tough sak..the tanding team loved it when i come cos Abg Hidayat will focus on me and they can SKIVE! Siak!

Now, im absorbed into the seni national team training. At least dah tak lost la! Training under Kak Zuhrah and Abg Asnadi..they're nice people. Abg Asnadi pon klakar..and yesterday dier baru potong botak, so he's threatening every guy in the seni team to cut our hair short soon..if not he'll make us go botak like him..including me?!! AKU DAH BOTAK SAK!!

But i really appreciate their effort in making me feel at home..comfortable. They tried to joke with me and all..but initially malu kan. So aku buat muker blur jek lah most of the time!! But ok arh..skarang dah joke balik sikit..*sikit jek!* Takleh over..nanti diorng tahu aku lame!

Abg Asnadi was also telling us at the end of training, time tutup gelanggang, that there are ppl commenting abt us. You know, the usual thing abt tanding lagi teruk dari seni..or that kite slack. But he say, take it as a challenge..no point saying anything.. just bring home medals in GOLD. Then he turned to look at me.."Kao pon sama jugak!" and i asked him "Braper banyak?" with a selenger tone.. Hahaha..it made everyone laugh!(explain: for those who do not get the joke.. Cos i am in one event only per..camner nak menang more than one medal?!)

But haiz, its true. Ppl segregate btwn seni and tanding and compare. How can you compare when the requirements are totally different. Do you need to bother about your posture during a tanding match? Or the technique? Or putting all your 100 steps in 3mins? Its like a 100min sprint and a gymnastic event...u cant compare between them. Both are equally tough in their own sense. Personally, i have no preference but i love tanding training. Hahaha..fun! It seems sadistic la but in army, i've done worse! Esp in fasting month..extended obstacle course training and circuits..sadistic people and they dun even realise its our fasting month until Hari Raya is a few days away!! Hahaha..

Studies wise...i need to buck up. Seriously..what de heck is my parents paying for my education anyway if i stay on like this?!! So the engine is warm again..

I need to get out of my cave soon..

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

I was logging on to msn when i saw a headline that shocked me...

A man i loved to watch on television, one who had inspired me for my A'level GP composition...a man of great passion of something i have love for... He is Steve Irwin a.k.a 'Crocodile Hunter'. Yes...that CRAZY and UBER ENTHUSIASTIC guy on Animal Planet who does dangerous stuffs with animals.. He died while filiming a documentary in Australia's Reefs..he got pierced in the heart by a stingray..a freak and unfortunate accident and i too mourn his death..

We all talk about discovering our passion...for him..he exudes it. He has lots of passion and he shows it in the things he does. That is one man i respect. He turned the Australian Zoo into a worldwide tourist attraction after taking over it from his parents. That is one entrepreneurial man.. Have you ever seen his documentaries?? Crazy at it seems...he sure has love in what he does and his passion..i wish to emulate.

For more info..u can go to http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/14663786/ ..

Animal planet will be different without him. There goes my dreams of meeting him live in person..May God bless his soul.


May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

I love GEK1010...Property Management. The lecturer/ tutor is great!

Imagine lectures that u WANT to go to..that u DON'T actually feel sleepy..that u actually sit forward to listen and your mind thinking of the things the lecturer points out..playing GAMES in lectures. What about tutorials that you actually WANT to participate. That you dun ever feel bored..that you actually LEARN..smile and laugh in.

That's the experience i'm having in GEK1010. So kengkawan, if you are thinking of a GEM module to take next sem, i strongly recommend you this module!! The lecturer is very interesting and creative in her approach to teaching and education. This is one role model teacher that impressed me..really impressed me. Her enthusiasm during tutorial and lecture is remarkable.

OK ok...this is what i learnt in tutorial. That i'm KINESTHETIC. What does being kinesthetic mean? This is what i obtained from http://www.learning-styles-online.com/style/physical-bodily-kinesthetic..

The physical (bodily-kinesthetic) learning style
If the physical style is more like you, it’s likely that you use your body and sense of touch to learn about the world around you. It’s likely you like sports and exercise, and other physical activities such as gardening or woodworking. You like to think out issues, ideas and problems while you exercise. You would rather go for a run or walk if something is bothering you, rather than sitting at home.

You are more sensitive to the physical world around you. You notice and appreciate textures, for example in clothes or furniture. You like “getting your hands dirty,” or making models, or working out jigsaws.

You typically use larger hand gestures and other body language to communicate. You probably don’t mind getting up and dancing either, at least when the time is right. You either love the physical action of theme park rides, or they upset your inner body sense too much and so you avoid them altogether.

When you are learning a new skill or topic, you would prefer to “jump in” and play with the physical parts as soon as possible. You would prefer to pull an engine apart and put it back together, rather than reading or looking at diagrams about how it works.

The thought of sitting in a lecture listening to someone else talk is repulsive. In those circumstances, you fidget or can’t sit still for long. You want to get up and move around.

Common pursuits
Pursuits that involve the physical style include general physical work, mechanical, construction and repair work, sports and athletics, drama and dancing.

Common phrases
You may use phrases like these:

That feels right to me.
I can’t get a grip on this…
Stay in touch.
Get in touch with…
That doesn’t sit right with me.
I have good feelings about this.
My gut is telling me…
I follow your drift.

So how? Haris, Caron, Luvs, anyone....siao boh? Is this true? Based on what you've observed me your entire lives and how you've known me and seen me work..IS THIS TRUE?? For me...yeah..i think so. Based on my tutor..she said that kinesthetic ppl dun absorb things well by seeing or listening but by actions. If i strip a motorbike down to bits and put it back together again...then i will understand it well. Not by listening or reading or hearing. And YES..i understand things only if i actually do it physically or i do a rigorous process of playing it out in my head..

I didn't understand it when Hafihz said he chose me as PB camp commandant last sem cause im a kinesthetic person...i tot it was some jargon for those ppl who cant think but can do work..HAHAHA...So research is always important!

Dr Grace also said that kinesthetic people are the people who bear the brunt of Singapore's education system cause it is more catered towards the visual and auditory learners. So often..we lose out and are slightly left behind. I dun wanna make this an excuse as to why i dun perform in my academics but its one point that i have to learn in understanding myself. She described to us a few ways where kinesthetic ppl can best learn..as well as for visual and auditory ppl.. and she assured, in her class, kinesthtic people will never be left behind as tutorial is games time!! Hahaha...

Like Wak Sun Tzu told me..

"Know yourself, know your enemy, understand your terrain and environment..a 1000 battles, a 1000 victories."

He said, "Know yourself.." first as it is the most important of all lessons. A person who masters himself and is able to control and harness himself to the best is capable of great things. After that, know "your enemy..". I'd like to think that war these days are dumb ways to settle disputes. So let's take it that the enemy are your goals...to gun them down one-by-one..knowing your goals can give u a clear direction towards winning your main battle..to attain the future and the end you've always wanted. And lastly, "A 1000 battles, a 1000 victories.." simply means..you'd overcome all that's in your path. Assured..insyaAllah.

That's all for now.

**I'd like to thank the greatest gf in the world or being with me yesterday..everyday. For standing by with me..alongside. Leading me when you have to..supporting me when i stand forth. I love the way u love me dear. For not ever taking me, us for granted. The way you talk to me..especially when u wanna ask me something. The way we doa' before we share our food. The way you laugh and smile..the effort and time you put in..the way your cute fist wants to debuk me. The way you try not to frown...your selengeh behaviours!! EVERYTHING..and i am thankful he brought us together. Blessed..patience..we'll get to Holland soon. You're cute, elegant, lovely and great.. I love you..**


May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...