A bid to keep to my 2010 new year's resolutions...

OK...previous blog cut VERY short cos of activation by Mindef. Hahaha...

WARNING: This blog may seem mushy but dun worry..its not that all mushy. I got other stuffs in it too..so if you feel like vomiting..persevere!

This is the main gist that i..urmm..WE have to write about. Ishk3....the fact that we discovered staying apart is not as easy as staying together. Are we such love-dorks that we cant even be 4days apart from each other?? Ok...here's the story...based on our schedules..we both thought that we would only meet on monday..which is tomorrow at matric fair becos we have different things planned. Which amounts to 4 days being physically apart...but throughout these 3 days...we talk on the phone somewhat more than we used to...smsed incessantly..and tried to build telepathy..(werking out well it seems) Hahaha...

Its not that we are so lousy we cannot be apart but we are so in love that we want to be together..

Thats how we think of it..so at the third day..i felt that SHE cant take it anymore so we decided to meet. She was going to the NDP Preview with Gamar and Fasha and i have reservist. So it was somewhat exciting to be meeting at such a short notice, spontaneously..(so far spontaneoty has been key to driving excitement between us..)..and through moments of selenger-ness that we both seem to have in common...all four of us met up at suntec for swensens! i ended my whole reservist thingy and reached home at 8. I went home..dumped my equipment and went out straight not bothering to change at all! Tak boleh tahan!! I dun want to be late for this one cos i noe its gonna be a short meet...a second lesser would mean a whole moment missed. I took the train and yes...out of sheer exhaustion from the long day..fell asleep! Luckily she messaged me while i was in the train..i already over-shot till lavender at that point when im supposed to have dropped off at city hall...while she and the other two friends took the walking route from stadium to suntec..hahaha..So i got off the train and made a U-turn trip in which i was STILL earlier than them!!

Those patriotic people were in red..all three of them! They related their experiences of cam-whoring at the parade..looking at guys in uniform..hmmmm...nasib abik aku datang pakai uniform tau! Hahaha... The first thing she commmented was.. "Yeah..u look thinner. *grins*" (Internal joke: I was telling her that if our scheduled meet on monday was to be extended to tuesday, i would be so thin cos i cant eat or sleep properly and go all shabby and listless...)...HAHAHA...yes..despite the binging..maybe i got thinner la. Apadah Nurse.. We shared a 'sticky' shewy choc sundae and chicken backed rice..yes, the tradition of sharing food will be upheld. BUT..we forgot to baca doa sesama!! Nevermind..Fash and Gamar ard..so maybe kiter malu..hehehe..

FAsha was supposed to blanjer but then naah...split jek la. We headed home..split off with Fasha and Gamar since they were taking the train and i was going to send her home taking bus. Purposely missed one bus cos there was no seats empty on board. She put on the pink panther plaster on my TINY cut on my thumb..hahaha!! Cute kaperr... and we purposely stopped two bus stops ahead of her's so that we could spend more time together. She had blisters on her feet so she walked barefoot home. *Carefree moments like this should sometimes be amalkan-ed!* And we thot her parents were going for a midnite show cos her mom called her earlier telling her that! But when we reached home..both the cars were still there..and...............i saw her dad!!! Shit...wahaha...apparently they cancelled their midnite show date those two lovebirds! Hahaha..close encounter with daddy huh?? I think he saw...

It was midnite when i got to the busstop and missed the last 52 home...so i waited for a cab which was easy cos at midnite..all the cabbies come out to play..haiz..

But then...all the effort to meet was well worth it. The taxi ride home after the midnite hour..having no money after spending at swensons and having the crdit card swiper in the cab disappoint you..i treat it all as the fee to break bond of the 4 day apart agreement. I thank God for the great taxi driver..this malay skin-headed big uncle who drove very nicely for a cabby. When the machine didnt work..he drove me to the atm and waited. He didnt seem afraid that i might just run off cos i tink some cabby would want some form of identification or me to have left mi ID behind just in case.. Then after i drew the money..i wanted to pay him.

He asked me "Masuk la.." or "get in"

I gave him my stunned look...and he said.."Awak tak tinggal sini kan?" or "Ur not staying here right?" because he already drove me to my block earlier on but had to drive ard 500m down to the atm..He ealborated.."Mari saya hantar awak balik..takper..mari.." or "Come..i send you back to your block.."

I was very thankful..thank God amidst this world, tainted by people with evil scheming minds..there are still people who do good in this world without fear or 2nd thoughts...Its with these people that the world is a great place to live in.

When you do good to someone..u MAY..insyaAllah be offered a prayer BUT when you do evil to him..you are SURE to be cursed upon.. - vzoj

So...always do good with good intentions in mind. Actions coupled with intentions..your ibadah on eart will never go unrewarded, NEVER. Just do it. Persevere despite the shotcomings you may go through is the short-run.

Well...im very thankful for all that HE has blessed me with. All the experiences..the good and the bad. Those that have taught me lessons in beiiter ways as well as pleasant.

N guess what...despite the fact that we are supposed to meet only tomorrow..WE ARE GOING to meet AGAIN later today for a 1 and a half hour buka puasa date!! Skejap pon jadik la..WAHAHAHA...rabak. Dun we get a medal for being the most loving and sweet plus cute and everything that is good couple award??? Cmon people!! Give recognition where it is due! Hahaha...

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Sitting at home waiting for the call from 3SIB...Technical Mob..expaected to be at 1400hrs..Its 1400hrs now...

AAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!!!!!! Ok...No blog!! Activated NOW!

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Yes..i didnt win the Gold.

So thats one aim this year that i won't be able to achieve.. Frustrated? I was..then i realised that this is exactly the plan. Coupled with the Seminar that i incidentally attended with Nurse (because her mom was in KL and her sis do not see the value in attending..), i finally am able to put a picture into that dream book which i have left empty for 3 years.

On the way back home after Silat Prize giving with Nurse...my mind went through a lot of things like what i really want and how i want it to be like.. (Sorry loves that u had to just sit by and watch..u did help a great deal just by sitting by and being close..)

Sometimes in life..when u get the things u want..and u take it for granted. That is not yet the greatest sin...the greater sin is when u start to lose your drive and given the limited life that you have on this world...time should not be wasted with wasteful energy. Energy that is lost...since Energy is not created or lost, and can only be converted from one form to another..we should aim to make use of it and make use of it to things with value. Like contributing to your personal future and growth, contributing to family, mankind and society and also most importantly..all in the name of ibadah.

Ibadah comes in two forms i heard. One - the routines that we have to fulfil as a muslim and Two - the actions and intentions of our every act. I have made a resolution to not waste my every moment out of the house till the time i come back home without the second form of ibadah. Helping others, picking up litters, helping animals, contributing in any forms of way that is of good action and intentions...all in His name. All for the future.

And today...Me and Nurse went to IKEA! Hahaha...berangan kot how our house might be like! Hahaha...kwang hasssam...she came early, i came early too but she told me that she hadnt reached yet cause she wanted to complete my postie that she was supposed to give me just now. Hahaha...dah naughty eh skarang! But awwww....thanx luvs! House-planning was fun. Cam-whoring..(tak banyak larr..takot kener tangkap ngn security!) Haha...we are definitely gonna have a 'throne' at the living room, a two-seater high sofa..fabric-ed, NOT leather.. settled how the kitchen should feel like..Gonna have routine rotations of chefs of the day or week! Hahaha...gonna have a picture of tulips hung around a zen or any comfy-concept home. InsyaAllah...

And her nenek called...telling her to 'come home'quickly cos she had cooked. Hinting something ey? Hahaha...but i was abit hesitant today...cos i had to go for tuition la...if it was earlier, Yes, i would..but hmmm...OKLAH!!! Aku belom ready larr...nenek ngna datok skali sey kalo pergik! But yes...i promised Monday! A date with Nurse and Nenek next monday cos Nenek really wanted to see me...HAhaha... Takottt kener grill... "sorry u kener grill sorang2 hari ni!" and i dun think i told you much about my mom n dad yet right..nanti aku prep kan kao..hahaha...

Klah..im motivated and ready to go! When are we getting A-pluses for our exams Faz?? THIS SEM!! and the next...and so on and so forth...4.9 here i come!!

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

I just read about Fyq through his blog...YESSAH! That friend of mine at last has discovered that mettle in him. Now he's friendlier, smilier, eats veggies and mushrooms! Hehehe...great job la Fyque!

OK...i tink thats all i will blog for now. Have to study for my test this friday. A list of activities awaits me..best one is on thursday i am going with k2p for fishing trip at ubin! Fish where? I dunno siah...

And yes..tini wun completely read my blog posts cos she will vomit of over mush-iness...not mushrooms..hahaha!

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Am i surprised at the speed at which we are moving forward? Is it worrying or is it fun? Or is it normal..

"As long as each of us is not called up by the other party's parents to talk about marriage..then any speed is comfortable!" -vzoj

If i met her mom yesterday...guess what? She was introduced to my mom AND my nek today after our first ever intellectual date watching an Econs Quiz Finals! It was a shock for both parties cos it wasnt planned at all in advance..kasi SHOCK la. Gilerrrr u myt say but hey..it went well! That girl was taking so long at Darussalam praying that it got me worried...praying to God for gd luck ey Nurse?! But i know how she felt cos i felt the same way the day before! Its just that i dun have a ready supply of bedak with me...kalo tidak..jadi macam Raja Kapoooor la muka aku! Hehehe...

She caught my mom UN-luckily as my mom was going home from my nek's. It would be better if momma stayed so she could get to noe Nur-se better..But they chatted for a while and with nenek...hmmm...at least she can hold conversations with nenek! Haha... She got to eat dinner, stayed for prayers and watched tv while talking to nenek. So i guess the entire experience should be overwhelming for her ey!! Check for white hairs later k luvs..tanda stress rabakk! My nenek revealed some explicit details of my history...hmmm...not gonna elaborate! Think they talked about her family and there was a small intro about our family..sort of like mini-induction programme la.

I took some pics to remember the day..and vids too of Nurse having dinner and later, washing the dishes. Hahaha...i was relishing the moment she said. It was for memory's sake dok... these moments should never be forgotten! Mom seems to be doing well with her. And well, i think nenek has a good impression of her.

Nek was asking me, "Kao tak takot ker mak bapak dier mintak hantaran $10 000??"

and I was, "Nek, kan izal dah cakap..izal dah plan nak khawin lari! Murah giler..free!"
And she replied.."Takperlah..nanti kalo nenek dah mati, jual rumah, bagi2 duit rumah pat abah izal boleh pakai buat hantaran."

This..she sounded serious..and i told her i never want to sell the house, ever, if i had the power to. The house holds practically most of the memories i have about family, my growing up years, atok, and subsequently nenek. So i was assuring her, if i have the ability and the support of the uncles, i will take care of the house and never sell it off. I want my family to grow up there..the place where i grew up. Where i learnt many things..a place of solitude, of peace..a place to hide and seek love and manjer. Hahaha..thats the perk of being the only grandson for 21 years and 10 days runnning amongs 7 other girls...u get pampered..very pampered!

Well..i leave Nurse to blog out her feelings about her meet-the-'nek and mom' session. Im sure there are juicy stuffs to share. She's the more expressive one!

I have my Silat finals later..if i hit Gold, NUS might win overall artistic champions..if tanding wins plenty..den we will win both categories and hit overall champions for IVP2006! And get into contention for Best TeamNUS 2006...set arh! I also have to things on my eye...

1. Is there a spot for Artistic Men's Solo into the ASEAN IVPs at Vietnam?? Im eyeing that!

2. NUS Rookie of the year!

These two things in mind...plus Gold..insyaAllah..2006 looks set for year of my life award! I would like to extend the warmest thanks to my mom too for helping me out with my silat outfit. I would like to say that I love you very very much and that you are the best mom in the world!! Words and actions dun do justice to my feelings...i thank God for being blessed to be your son Momma! Nurse...learn a point or two from my momma yah!

"U look beautiful like this.."

Well...go for Gold Zola! And congrats to Nurse for her achievement...now she's at 130 points and im at 140 points!! U gotto catch up luvs...hehee...I let her elaborate on the point system that we came up with in her blog..



May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

What does the title tell you anyway? ARRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Ok...went wif Nurse and Alea to pick their Ibu up from the airport. She just came back from a work trip to Thailand. And yes..this is the first formal introduction between her Ibu and me...*stop grinning people!* Meeting the paretns for the first time is never easy...

So how did it go Zola?

Hmmm...i went to meet the 2 sis at the airport straight. We reached exactly in time to receive their Ibu at the gate. This is how it went...Nurse was intro-ing me to Alea and the Nurse and me chatted.. Suddenly Alea went.."IBUUUUUUU" and Nurse turned and looked...she went "IBUUUU" too...both went running to their mom and i went.."OOOOH MY...cmon Zola.." So i just tagged along behind them lah. Then Nurse intro-ed me to Ibu. I think Nurse said.."Ibu, this is Faizola..EH! Faizal.." Hahaha...and her mom if i wasnt mistaken looked at me and said "Assalamu'alaikum, apa nama tadi? Faizal eh?" ..hahaha. I won't forget the voice though. One listen to the voice and i think ppl can sort of guess her line of occupation. Or maybe its just me and my silly weird observations.

So then i went to take Hitam from the carpark..had to change away the CD songs from Dangdut first!! I was playing the Dangdut folder on the way to the airport due to the slow traffic caused by the heavy downpour...upbeat a bit maah.. Loaded up the stuffs at the back and off we went.

The journey was alright. There WASNT any awkward or weird questions anyway if you were wondering!! Nurse said i was good...calm and composed. YEAH RIGHT! I nearly stuttered at every first question the mom asked me! BAAAAAAAAH! But to think of it...actually i was calm and composed because of Nurse. She made travel in the car normal..like how we always do. She talked to me the usual way and not differently just because her mom is around. So noraml that i felt like singing out loud to the songs played! But must maintain per...takkan depan mak orang nak terpekik terlolong sak??!! The only awkward moment being when the mom offered dried mangoes that she bought to all of us and when she offered it to me..Nurse was saying how i cant eat cause im driving and i must focus on the road... Dear Alea went, "U suap him la...!" in front of the mom...thanks huh?! As if i did not hear that!! heheh...maintain jek...

Sent them home and that was my first step into the gates of Jupiter. Before this, the nearest i went was right in front of the gate, the one with Pak Sumardi waing and smiling to me. This time..i stepped in..cos i was helping the mom carry her lugguage. And she asked whether i want to come in...? My heart went.."NOOOOO!!!!!!!!" but my mouth went, "Takper la cik..lain kali jek..". Wahahaha...she told me to kirimkan salam (send her regards) to my orang tua (parents).."Insya Allah" i said but deep in my heart..i was asking how siaK?!?

I was imagining..so how? Like "Mak, Kamie nyer Ibu kirim salam." Im sure my mom would go.."saper Kamie?? Buat aper dier kirim salam?" Hahaha...my weird imaginations again! And did i tell you Alea told Nurse i was WAAAAAYYYYYY better than some other guy?! Shant mention who but im sure that includes Deco, Rui Costa and Del Piero.. *getting ready for bombardment!!*

Guess by the good reviews..it was a real happy day for the both of us. Satisfying in a way.. Oklah..i got to prep to go for tuition and then Econs Quiz Finals...have to wear shirt and tie..thats the dress code so i guess i dunnit to wear pants lah?? And both Nurse and i were wondering.. what if her dad reads our blog....ummmmmmmm.... Hi Dad??

Ok dah..so i scored 80 points already.

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Training alone sucks....it requires a lot of mental discipline as well as willpower. There is no one to push you...no one to motivate you...JUST YOU yourself. Plus..u have to set up and dismantle the mattresses ALONE! Thats the worse thing...

Im sitting here...alive at the workspace now. Utilising the resources that my mom had paid for in terms of school fees. You see...im charging my phone here, im using the lifts more, aircons, fans, lights and all that i can cos my mom and other people paid for it.

Yesterday..i survived a tiring but romantic, fun and exciting day. It started off at 6am...well...for me its started at 6am the day before cos from my last blog..i said that i couldnt sleep for various reasons right? Well..went to pick my luvs up for our romantic sunrise date in commemoration of 6 years and 2 weeks together bersamaan 238 weeks left countdown. Well....we planned to go to the wrong place to begin with! How can u see the sunrise at Mt Faber?! The sun rises through the East while Mt Faber faces the South!!! Hahaha...but i tink we say the sun rise from Hitam on the way there...yes..on the way there cos i took a wrong turn somewhere and we were now 'chasing' for 0706hrs. Hahaha...we reached Mt Faber at 0700hrs but it was already bright and sunny BUT the view was great. We sat on a bench facing Harbourfront and we ate M&Ms White Chocolate for breakfast. Then...i went to train silat for a while...After which, we went to Paya Lebar to look for stuffs. *Did i tell you i have a great navigator for a matair?* Then we headed to school for 'lunch' at 4pm and we parted for 2 and a half hours.

Tuition was tuff...nopt becos of the kids but cos my eyes were closing against my will. The battle against the Zee monster was really tuff la! The kids were cute though..They went, "My abang..you not feeling well eh? Nevermind..sleep la." Hahaha...i ate sour power to keep me awake...

Then, back to school for MS appreciates. There, i was battling against the Zee monster again. But then, i heard my luvs has two bodyguards now..hmmm...and i tink they read this blog too.. Coming to that.

Faizola duly apologizes to those who had to withstand the mushiness and lovey-doveyness in this blog and the one yang sewaktu dengan ia..he understands that it may make some people uneasy but try to get used to it cos he and nurse dun ever want it to simmer down or change..we would prefer it to blow up further i would say!

"And YESSSAH! I got Diwajahmu kulihat bulan...but diff version, by Heet Koes Endang...Thanks LUV!" And luvs..16 hours with you really seem so short..hence i slowed down when we're reaching your place. Hahaha.. THANKS for the sewing on the jacket too! Guess what, she sewed 'F', 'a heart shape' and 'N' on the label of the jacket. Plus...she left some *errrrm...on it. EEEEEE....hahaha...awwww...shhhoooo shhweet...

Faizola di sini...ingin menyeru kepada semua isteri2 dan matair2 supaya mejadi shweeet giler macam nurse dier. Den, the world would be such a beautiful place to live in...you'd keep loking forward to everyday and there would be purpose or extra purposes to life..plus..it would be exciting!

Dah la...cukup di sini sahaja...

Aku dah kering of sweat and i have to head back to neks'...aku dah lapar ni!

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

OK...i cant sleep hence the 2nd blog for the new day.

Luvs..u can add this to my list of selenger moments. I brought home my ailing phone without the charger!! And now...its dead. So i WILL NOT SLEEP cos i am afraid i will not wake up in time for our subuh...

OK...for those who dunno who my nurse is...the pic on the left is a pic of us in a giler moment camwhoring with shades on. It was on this day that i first sent her to her bus-stop. But this day...we were still normal people..not yet crazy. Wahaha...but i doubt the picture justifies that statement! And to my darling adik...her name is Nur Kamilah..anak Pak Sumardi. Amacam? Ok tak abang nyer taste?? Anymore things you wanna know about her?? She somewhat just turned 20 when im about to turn 18...i seem to like older women huh.. or wait..AM I JUST TURNING 18 or am i turning 19?? FYYYYYQUEEE!!!! Mana satu ni???

And YES..tini complained i never blog about her so im gonna insert this part just for tini. Hahaha...Tini is one heck of a loyal friend who had never wavered in her perception of me. Her belief in me has been embedded in her ever since she knew me and so far..i am very very fortunate to have in her, a loyal friend. Even though people may shower her with bad comments of me..she still stubbornly stand on the decision that i have not fallen from her padestal..and i am fortunate she did that. Cos with this belief...i managed to hold on to the falling me. It was with this belief that she has of me that i managed to awaken from my slumber..ready to be what i was. Thank You tini...im always around for you to whine on. Wahaha... and i dunno why she still calls me to whine and confide in when all i do is laugh at her plight!!

WARNING: Faizola is not a person u turn to when u need an advice...when u confide in me..i tend to see the humorous side of the story. Ask Tini and Redha if you dun belief! Sometimes...fyque is better!!

Well..dah..i blogged about you tini...

Its now 0324hrs..my eyes are dry and heavy...but i WILL NOT SLEEP! I am darn determined not to cock this day up..

And Ain..(ok Ain is my elder sis who Nurse spoke to accidentally while trying to help me find my phone! What a way to have your first conversation with your matair's sis...WAHAHAHA) CHECK OUT THIS PIC! Hmmm...now u understand why i say Ari is not that special? Cos he looks much like me..rosy cheeks eh Aisyah? I got red cheeks aperr!! Well..she terserempak ngan Ari pat BSB concert..so Ari wanted to take a photo with her. (No pun intended..) Hahaha...so carry on and be jealous Ain if you're reading this! That sis of mine has Ari Wibowo as her wallpaper!! My gawd... well..i have a cow staring at me as mine.. so who's worse ey?

OK...im officially bored! Darn..and its only 0343hrs...hmmm...let me see whether i got anymore pics to display...i have here pictures from the day of the opening day of Silat IVPs. These are selected pics only...and i dun like to do collages so i'll display one-by-one..


This is a pic of the regu boys right before they entered the ring for their performance...touching scene of 3 guys who've been training hard together, synchronising their moves...im sure the bond will remain strong even after this..f not..it'll be such a waste..


This is them in the opening part of their performance...beautiful aint it??


This is our hansem solo performer..looking all glam and bling bling in his purple outfit. They say.."Only a MAN can carry the colour of purple.." He carried it well ey??


All the artistic guy performers..the other two not introduced yet, in blue and yellow is our duo performers. They got Gold for their performance...great arh! Kudos to Katak and Len!


The K2P boys..although part of K2P only still can pose...camwhoring is embedded deep in our blood. Hansem tak??


Katak and Nurul..right now i think there is somewhat a battle of who's the most disgusting couple eh? I think we let them win ok...Hahaha...and look who's snapping the pic being snapped. Its NURSE!!


The abang2 hot from PJC old boys...wahaha...satu ngah stoinc nagntok giler..and the other kenyang giler...


PJC old boys just playing cards...


And look...mateen is from PJC??! Yes..he is... all hansem and hot guys, if they are intellectual and cute..they come from PJC. I tink so too....

Dah la...that's all to my pics...ITS 0449hrs!! I can go iron my clothes first..bathe..warm up hitam..solat and den go for Ops Terbitwo...

Adios...

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

OK ok...its exactly 12am now...so its now 19th of july 2006! And today will make it 238 more weeks to go to D-day!! Set...

Gonna have things planned for esok despite our bustling schedule tomorrow aided by the trusty Guard-of-honour, Hitam..Wahaha...so i guess i can see my sewed-on dusty jacket azimat esok eh??

Well, i had the honour of Yati coming down to school to help me brush up on my routine just now and boy did she drill me hard. But then..she said it wasn't as hard as her training last time...and how old is she?? She's 19 as i just found out...darn!! Muda gilerr sak and packed with experience..she's been doing artistic silat for 7 years now! So, she must have been doing silat since primary or sec sch la...wooooah...But she is really good i tink. She teaches well...

From 2.30 to 5...she drilled me on each of my components. Back down to basic footwork and moves. I realised how many errors i have in my routine and it wasn't few...it would have cost me my GOLD!! Although she had flu..she came down all the way from Chua Chu Kang to help and yes..i was touched. I dare say this training wasnt a waste and that i learnt a lot. Did you know there are 100 moves in total for jurus tunggal?! I didnt...and now i did..100 moves in all segmented into 12 jurus or sets of sequence..all to be completed in 3 mins and if u didnt feel exhausted..ur good. I? I was panting and after more than 5 sets complete routine back to back...my legs were comparable to keropok lekor..u noe..the soft-soft keropok!! Maybe agar-agar would be an easier comparison la!

And she said...my main problem lies in my empty-handed moves...unlike the competition where my weapon-moves were comparable to shit on hotplate! Hahaha...thats what i tink la! She explained to me what they look out for when they mark and now that i know, my main aim would be to score PERFECT score..or near it. I tink if i set my mind and tune my body with plenty of practise..i can hit it..im not gonna play second fiddle to anyone out there... Yati said that since i made it to the finals on my first attempt as a first-year..it was achievement good enuf..and to her..me ending other than last would be a good achievement. I told her..getting a medal would be a good achievement..getting Gold would be great!

I tink Friday will be another training day with Yati...hopefully i can reset myself to do like how Yati had showed me...how i should be doing and not how i have been doing.

And luvs...wednesday is good so far except for the fact that i have tuition from 5-7...unless you wanna commission it as OPS NIRE day...i dunno whether got tutorial anot but 8-10 confirm got lecture..i get back to you on this k? But we will definitely meet up on wednesdays insyaallah to commemorate *ahemz ahemz*..hehe..

Ok ok...gotto end off here..tomorrow is a packed day..morning date..silat training..tuition and k2p OPS PECAHHHHH DAHHH...OPS NIRE nurse? Plus..the guava tree at my nek's backyard is suddenly bearing tons of fruits! YEAY!! U dunno how long we have waited for this moment...actaully we gave up..until that day where i chopped down half of it...and i tink my dad put some fertilisers...it suddenly responded..now waiting for my pineapples to grow.. next will be OPS ORKID at nenek's...i plan to build a flower bed solely consisting of orchids...all colours...and some will be hanging..some will be on the flower bed..it will be exotic i tell you!...

ciao ciao...

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

I think OPS ISOLATION is now in full swing. This whole week is gonna be dedicated for this Sunday, 5th performance beginning from 11am at NYP. I dead focused on the Gold...though its real tough cos i heard there are a few ex-nationals and PSK peeps..but underdawgs are the in-thing i heard too..

My private nurse won't make it to physically support but i heard somebody stole my jacket azimat to sew some stuffs on it...hmmmm...auch dich ;) Fazli couldnt make it to fight in the finals due to some freak of bad luck a few seconds to the end of the greatest match i saw him play..but you did well la Ali..i know u know and felt u did too! Being composed and totally in control of yourself in a match is a feeling that totally rawks la! And..i'll make sure if i have to jump down from the 24th floor..it'll be with the Gold medal huh?!! WAHAHA...*grins to Faz* and to dear Sal..ooooh baca blog orang sembunyi2 eh?! Kao datang support tak Sunday ni?! Bangun siang sikit doks...Faz..kao bang-kan pat telinga dier sikit pagi2...berkat tu..

Well..have training dates this week with Yati.. She'll help me brush up on my routine. Darn..i still feel i lack a lot to grab the Gold from the bull's horns. I recorded a clip of my 3min practise rehearsal today and it was far from the par that i set. I still looked as if i hunched..and my set was not neat. Cmon Zola...if anyone was to chance upon me in the mpsh..think they'll run off cos they'll see me talking alone on the mat. Hahaha... Self-talk. I do that when i have too..when i had Ari..i talked to it. When i had Donkey..i talked to it.. so now there's Hitam..but since its shared..i cant really talk to it..not all the time but i think Hitam has been with me through our life together..our guard-of-honour shall i say. Hahaha... Self talk i tink in a way helps...it helps you talk to your weaker inner self...like from a 3rd person view. I self-talk to keep myself motivated and focused..cos i know where I am going and I can tell myself what I want I to do...

"When you set your eye on a goal..waver not your eyes away from it lest you lose sight of it.."

But this is Bloody STEMEK la...(pls refer to the july 17th post by Lat at http://www.blogyangpalingboring.blogspot.com/ for the meaningS of 'STEMEK') I CANT MAKE IT FOR THE SECOND CONSECUTIVE TRIP TO jb WITH K2P...cos Yati could only make it on Tues or Friday..and Wed i got tuition..this is one sacrifice i WILL keep in mind to fire me up for the finals. Other than that..i have lost time with my Nenek-luvs..my Momma-luvs..and and..others..Like Yati said..

"Remember the amount of time you put in training..the hours you wasted and the fatigue you felt..the sacrifices..All for what?? All for this 3 feakin mins.." (in Malay though..)

Well..this 3 freaking mins is making me insane! Dah la Faz...pas ni kite retire. Masuk rock climbing pulak!! Wahaha...and shit..they are playing great old malay songs on the radio now! 90's hits..grrrrreat. I dedicate these to my favourite nurse who is asleep hugging and smelling you-noe-what...Wahaha...

To answer to your question my matair.. Yes. I fear school starting. I fear not knowing what it would be like. I fear what other challenges may lie ahead. I fear that things may change. I fear our honeymoon ending... IT WON'T I fear you might get bored of me. I fear our workholic nature will get the better of us..i fear that we might get too engrossed in one thing that it may affect the other be it academics or us. I fear the potential of an upheaval of our yin-yang balance...that we won't be child-like anymore..that our lovey-doveyness will just fizzle and fade..that you might get bored and not laugh at my dumb and selenger-ness anymore..

But amidst all these fears.. i know for one that you have instilled confidence in an insecure freak like me. That, i can look forth to the future without batting an eyelid. That i can berangan all i want and you're there to form up my dreams to reality. Well..and i tink she loves me..more than i can.. in a way that i can never keep up to.. Amd her exact reply to my previous sentence?...

"If u can see the way YOU love ME, then u'll know exactly why i love u the way i do (:"

Now give me 6788 reasons why this lady is not THE BEST??? People can go on and say "restrain and beware". Well..me and Nur have decided that "NO"..we will go on the way we are..unrestrained..wild and free. (Mcm kuda jek...) They say whilwhind romances are but shortlived..well..they forgot that winds go on..and on.. where there is hot and cool..there is wind. Where there is air..there is wind... They also forget that the best experiences are the thrilling ones like the rollercoaster rides.. and that when you ride up in a plane or a car..the fun moments are those manouveres and neck-break speeds u hit..as dangerous as it seems.. To speed with confidence and without doubts..insyaallah..honeymoon doesnt end. Cause i believe..accidents happen not to crazy pply..but to ppl who doubt at a point in those crazy moments. 378 weeks and 2 days more to go. With the obstacles set upon us so far..the boundaries we broke..and this thing that we had painstakingly built..its definitely worth it.

Well...now its really how to tell our parents. Like her..i want to share this happiness with them but HAHAHA..i really dunno how?!! How do you tell parents of your realtionship...like

1. "Mak..izal dah ader matair..."
2. "Momma..i got steady...nak tengok??"
3. "Momma..urrmmm...i've been sneakin ard with a gurl. Tink u should noe..."
4. "MAKK!!!!! Izal dah gatal! Dah berminah!!."
5. "Mak..i got something to tell you. Izal dah aderr...dah aderr...urmmm...aargh!!!"

Hahaha...i tink we'll discuss this k luvs. But YESSAH!! I got a smile from Pak Sumardi dah! I remember the first time i saw him..he wore a stern face at the airport and a firm handshake. Not one who seems friendly... BUT that morning i went to pick her up from home in the rain..she with her angklungs and tons of bags..and THAT sleeping bag she lugs ard.. He saw me and gave a smile..it seems huge though from where i stand, or maybe it was my imagination. Hahaha...did he wave goodbye?? She asked me whther i wanted to salam him..and i fearfully declined!! Cukup la stakat sini sajer dok..another day perhaps. Minum teh halia pat Prata House kot!

Well..i tink my blogs have been too lovey dovey this days. But its picisan buat Nur Faryal perr...Nur Faryal?? It means..'Light of an Angel'..and if you wanna noe who it is...ask my secretary! Jgn macam Sal..dah assume2!!

K k..gotto ciao..."K..aku dah blog daah! Happy?!" Hahaha...sweet dreams..

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

This is the first song in the Cruisin CD that she burnt for me. Songs dedicated for me! Just me...wahahaha...this song is actually very catchy..smooth in a way. If u can..go find it and listen.

CRUISIN'
by Gwyneth Paltrow and Huey Lewis

Baby let's cruise, away from here
Don't be confused, the way is clear
& if you want it you got it forever
This is not a one night stand, baby, yeah so

Let the music take your mind, ooh
Just release & you will find
You're gonna fly away
Glad you're goin' my way
I love it when we're cruisin' together
The music is played for love,
Cruisin' is made for love
I love it when we're cruisin' together

Baby tonight belongs to us
Everything's right, do what you must
& inch by inch we get closer & closer
To every little part of each other ooh baby, yeah So

Let the music take your mind
Just release & you will find
You're gonna fly away
Glad you're going my way
I love it when we're cruisin' together
The music is played for love,
Cruisin' is made for love
I love it when we're cruisin' together

Cruise with me baby
Cruise

Baby let's cruise
Let's flow, let's glide
Ooooh let's open up, & go inside
& if you want it you got it forever
I can just stay there inside you
& love you baby,

Let the music, take your mind
Just release & you will find
You're gonna fly (away)
Yeah, I'm glad you're going my way
I love it, when we're cruisin together
The music is played for love,
Cruisin' is made for (love)
I love it, I love it, I love it
You're gonna fly away
Yeah, glad you're going my way
I love it when we're cruisin' together
(The music is played for love)
It's love music
(Cruisin' is made for love)

And this was just a thought between us yesterday. "What if she didnt go to Germany?" "What if there wasn't a school holiday?" and all the other 'What Ifs' that came to mind...then would we still be together? Would it harbour the same effect as it has now?

And we realised that all that has happened happended for a reason. We just got to find it..and that we realised too that a small tweak in history would indefinitely alter the entire course of future...

Like i didnt noe she has a *crush* on me to begin with...WAHAHA...i didnt know all those weird looks i gave her would have some effect. What if i didnt do all those..to warn her not to forget to smile when i walk past. What if i didnt reply to her posties she wrote through her 3 weeks at Germany. What if i hadnt accompanied her home after the thing at Tampines. All these indefinitey paved the way to where we are now.. and im sure it was for a good reason.

Well...i got to go for some Al-Maa'rif function at Orchard Hotel. Then there will be the monthly family gathering at Yishun..and if Faz advances to semis...we'll all go and support at NYP! and tomorrow night..it will be our funkiest date ever...at pasar malam rumah nenek and datok! Hahaha...im looking forward to Ramlee burger!

Auch Dich!

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Wahaha...title sums it all. Somehow..we just discovered how God paired up two persons most unlikely to be together..together.

Two commitmentphobics..both wakes up late..takes long baths..and now plus a new character..Both SELENGER BACINS!! Hahaha...she's selenger rabak with people while im selenger rabak when im with her. OK..here's what i did..

First..i wanted to drive out of Sim Lim and discovered the gantry won't open cos there was insufficient value in my cashcard. Apparently, $10 wasnt enough!! The charge was $11.50??!! Rabakkk...and there was a car waiting behind me in the queue..so i had to signal him to let me reverse out..so both of us had to reverse out the whole long way cos there was a divider that stretched out for ard 10m.

2nd..after i managed to get out of the queue..we wanted to top up the cashcard. Reached all the way to the top-up machine...and i suddenly remembered that i forgot to bring my cashcard along!! WAAAAAAAAAH!!!! Hahaha...ask her whether she had one.. YESSSAH...she has one!! BUTTTT....somebody's cashcard had expired! Wahaha...so we had to go back down to get my cashcard and yes...

Prob 3...got me nearly to steaming point! The machine said it cant recognize my atm card. WHAT!? I tried over 5 times...and still cannot. So i decided to use the ala-armageddon-russian-spaceman trick..."VIOLENCE" Violence in first level...scolding. I scolded the machine and threatened that if it doesnt wanna read my card..i'll make sure it felt like it had to be recycled soon..and yes..after that..it listened and read my card. So..machines got feelings. Hahah...

Im sorry Nurse if my dumbness nearly got u late for ur tuition...plus a stupid jam along Upper Serangoon Rd at peak hour. But then..we managed only to be late by 7mins. So i waited tfor her to send her to nenek n datok's place..apparently for her to be expectantly grilled over pizza! And yes..parents and their parents are not dumb and blind. And yes..dad secretly noes..'secretly'..those bed secrets that parents share and we dunno of..we often forget that our paretnts..once u remove the family facade are lovers and lovers usually do not hide stuffs from each other and they share thoughts.

Well...today has been real fun. I didnt know bugis village has 2 more storeys above it. That shopping for purple is difficult and that i have found a confidante..a lover and a best friend..one who navigates and reads the map well. One who has balance btwn religion and enjoyment. One independent lady that is romantic as well as manjer.. cute and klutzy.. observant and understanding.. adaptable and amiable. Smiles sincerely and one who loves me more than i possibly can..

Singing to mohabbatein and other weird songs in the car with you..(actually to you!) Making it a point and tradition to share our food when we eat..the silences that were never awkward. You being the co-pilot or navigator and me piloting..u being too engrossed reading my postcard to you that you missed out a turn..the hearts you draw on ur postcards and the way u talk about ur gramps..and yes..the way u shout my name..."FAIZOLAAAA" or FAIZAL BIN NORDIIINNN"...hahaha...and our seemingly unbearable lovey-doveyness to others that we simply enjoy.

To more postcards..an endless honeymoon period and boundless-growing love..i will fight beside you and i hope you will with me too..it will not be easy but who said it was? Auch dich..;)

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

What is it about love that makes a person so powerless, yet so powerful at the same time?
What is it about passion that drives one hard yet it makes him crazy?
What is it about faith that blinds a man yet opens his heart?

Questions that have a thousand different answers yet everyone thinks each of it is right? How can all of them be right when humans hold to a theory that if one is right, the other cannot be more right.

We live in a very social environment where each and every of our actions affect other people, be it physically around us...or simply those who keep us close to their heart.

Today is the 12th of July...which means officially, it marks the first successful week of 240 weeks. Before this week, we had to overcome our fears as well as fears of social repercussions. Mentally, we already managed to overcome our individual mental fears..setting a free path towards our unchartered combined goals. With this..now, the second obstacle we expect has arised. Social repercussions...

Personally, I dun see all these as a problem..not ours though but of those who keep us, or her to be precise, in their hearts. Personally, i feel touched that one can have friends who are so concerned about their friends and wanting to play a role in their lives. I know i too have friends close to me but they have learnt who i am and understood how i work and who i can be. They trust me with me own life...

Personally too, i feel great to know she does not treat it as a problem and that she understands the rants and concerns of her friends do not cause a single stir in our lives cos of the understanding we have together...and that we hold firm to it. I am deeply honoured. Now i know where i stand in their hearts..nowhere.

This fortress of isolation i built slowly upon me is for a reason, a reason not to protect..but to fortify what is inside. To be able to slowly expand it without the scrutiny of others..and i hope it remains so.

To endless honeymoons...

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Now at FOC, since there is no key for me to look up the room..i have to stay inside to guard the belongings. Hahaha... and CONGRATS to dear Azack for having gone through her convocation. I had to buy flowers for her and darn..u dun get Faizola to choose flowers cos apparently i have the worst tastes amongst the Khalawats i heard! Hahaha...

But at the florist..i saw these pineapple shoots for sale. Always wanted to grow pineapples in the garden and i definitely jumped on this opportunity to have a shot at $1.50. Boy was i excited! Hahaha...YESSSAH..if you guys want pineapple...can la..but have to see how successful my attempt is...got to wait for a few weeks or months la..

And i think cycling to school is not bad...maybe just the weather but hell..it only takes 20mins max!! Thats like a bus journey inclusive of waiting and walking time! Hahaha..gotto search for a new basikal pasar..yang power sikit. Kalo ada gear lagik best! Climbing hills with a full load on a pasar bike really builds the thighs! Thunderous huh....so set la.. OPS HHF on the way!

Check out the song..

Di Wajahmu ku Lihat Bulan

di wajahmu ku lihat bulan
bersembunyi di sudut kerlingan
sadarkah tuan
kau ditatap insan
yang haus akan belaian

di wajahmu ku lihat bulan
menerangi hati gelap rawan
biarlah daku mencari naungan
di wajah damai rupawan

serasa tiada jauh dan mudah dicapai tangan
ingin hati menjangkau kiranya tinggi di awan

di wajahmu ku lihat bulan
yang mengintai di balik senyuman
jgn biarkan ku tiada berkawan
hamba menantikan tuan

serasa tiada jauh dan mudah dicapai tangan
ingin hati ingin menjangkau kiranya tinggi di awan
di wajah mu ku lihat bulan
yg mengintai di balik senyuman
jgn biarkan ku tiada berkawan
hamba menantikan tuan

A very old favourite of mine..gave up looking for it after searching for so long. Somehow, a certain nurse likes it too...aaaaah...so i found the lyrics. It was originally sang by Sam Saimun, an indonesian. It was covered by don't know who and made famous in the film 'Perempuan Melayu Terakhir' or the Last Malay Woman.

Darn i was a bit of a crank last nite. Feeling feverish and tired. Sorry..but the pissy feeling wasnt for you..it was more for me cos i hate getting sick and injured. Auch dich..(: Guess yesterday was MMS day huh...

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Italy won!!

Ok...so Brasil lost to France...but Italy won France.. Though im no supporter of Italy, they've been playing well. So this final..im supporting the better and more consistent team. I pity my old friend Barthez though..its ok pal...u won it before.

I tink Materazzi said something to Zizou that made him do that audacious headbutt...real 'full-blooded headbutt' that floored that guy!! It was really not Zizou to do that...im sure the media are gonna place all the blame on Zizou...poor him.

K k...im off to nap abit. Wakie early and go nak's place to pack for FOC.

N yes..Ops NIREs..GHE-days..waiting for more to come..

YESSSAH...I qualified for the finals! So set a date for next week..most probably sunday to support NUS Silat ok! Hahaha...

Well...tomorrow will be FOC. 4 days and 3 nights at school. I hope it will be fun...as usual K2P boys will paokaliao logistics and all those jobs scorned by society..(hahaha) But yes, i think without K2P, the malay-muslim societies in NUS won't really be fun or successful. We have members practically sprawning everywhere.. and best of all... we are all hansem la siak! (ok ok...digressing)

and......HAPPY BIRTHDAY Bobby!!

Hahaha...today is our friend Bobby's birthday. Nazri the Jack-Booby (ooops..Bobby) U are lucky to have someone like Nad. I've never seen her so stressed la.. Not that i spend time with her much.. (im isolated perrrr...) But haha..i saw a stressed gf today having to plan.. Somehow, you will always feel lucky when there are people thinking of you regardless of who they are to you, family, friends or "liebe dich-ers" or anyone..when people have you in their minds or prayers..you are one lucky person.

I felt prayers when i was doing the opening greeting (the one i looked up to the sky and held my hands open..) I felt i calmed down alot during that particular point. Somehow..it soothed my jittery self. I think i took more time completing that particular ceremony than anyone else in the event. Hahaha...and i will continue taking as much time as i can during the finals. I will still wear purple!! As kedi as it is...i was still the only one with that colour..Hahaha..and that colour is our colour. So yes.. purple is the in-thing..only a MAN can carry it off la!

Now im waiting with my adik at the living room for the world cup finals match btwn france and italy and yes..i will be rooting for italy. I tink the azzuris are gonna win this time. Dun get me wrong..i dun really support them but watching the way they play..i think they have what it takes this time..unless a certain Zinedine Zidane is let loose to run amok..den Italy shot themselves in the foot.

Ok...zidane just scored from penalty...

i tink i'll just publish this and watch soccer..

ich liebe dich..

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

YES...i still cannot sleep.

It has been roughly 4 hours since my previous post. Since then, i tried to lie down, read...doodle...visualise but nothing got me to lala-the-dreamland...

So i decided to change the blogskin to a very effiminate one..i think this is the most effiminate one that i've ever made. Wahaha...tulips and windmill... When will it become a reality to view the things in real life?? Ops HHF will have to kickstart now! Hahaha...if not...haiz...nothing will be a reality.

Dun ask me why my design is like this..dun ask me why my baju silat is purple for tomorrow...and dun ask me what those words mean. Please...please...do not infer. Hahaha..thank you. If you understand, you will. If you don't..you don't. The simple things in life shouldnt be made complicated especially with distorted perceptions.

"The good people may not last long in life...but the good people enjoy peace in their short life."

So i try to think only of good..but don't scowl on me if i think bad cos im only human to make mistakes even though i may try all i can to do the best that i could..(I'm just ranting..)

OK...i'm afraid to fall later. I'm afraid that i can't sit cross-legged. I'm afraid i might wobble and lose my balance. I'm afraid i might forget. I'm afraid the parang or the stick will slip off my hands. I'm afraid i go too fast or too slow. I'm afraid that the jury will come to me and bite my legs off. I'm afraid that the crowd will boo me. I'm afraid the stick will bounce up and hit me in the face when i slam it on the mattress. I'm afraid my samping and tanjak will fall off. I'm afraid my pants will tear. I'm afraid that i might lose...i dun like to lose.

Redha just reminded me of what i am in a short conversation we had a hours ago..this was her reply after i said that for tomorrow, i will just aim to get through..to justqualify for the finals..her reply..

"Is this the Faizal i know? Only aiming to qualify? The Faizal i knew never aimed for that...he only aims for number one. Not even number two..just the top."

Hahaha...thanks Red. At least, with all the so called 'retributions' i get, i knew i did some things in life right to be able to have such great and loyal friends even through times where i lost myself. I'm sorry...and yes..U TOO. I am most thankful for u.

I will sleep...and i will impress so much that thunderous claps will fill the hall. Even those against me will clap in awe..WAHAHAHAHA...*evil laugh*

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

OK...sorry! I'm not sleeping like the nurse ordered..im thinking of later. 13hours from now will be the preliminary round of my competition.

I will be the last to perform the routine in my category. How? Thinking about it negatively...i will play 2nd or 3rd fiddle to those that already impressed earlier before me. Its harder to create an impact being last...and that expectations of the jury will definitely get more stringent as they get tired and as they see more and more competitors performing.

I was so bored...i went to wash and wax Hitam..surprised that my sis wasnt using it. Gave myself a hundred plus treat after that. Hahaha...but she's using it later and sunday cos of her friend's wedding...so sorry i cant help. Hahaha...i wish u luck with your dad huh!! I think waxing cars is a gd exercise esp after lunch and dinner at Mac's today. Darn...if i wobble and look like Ronaldo on the mat on the competition..u guys know why!

Okla...i am gonna do some mind games and exercises....anyway..got caught red handed by a little gal just now. Hahaha...funny!

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

The current favourite...its in my new "CRUISIN' CD"! Thank you...the song's by Alanis Morissette anyway..

"Head Over Feet"

I had no choice but to hear you
You stated your case time and again
I thought about it

You treat me like I'm a princess
I'm not used to liking that
You ask how my day was

You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole
You're so much braver than I gave you credit for
That's not lip service

You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

You are the bearer of unconditional things
You held your breath and the door for me
Thanks for your patience

You're the best listener that I've ever met
You're my best friend
Best friend with benefits
What took me so long

I've never felt this healthy before
I've never wanted something rational
I am aware now
I am aware now

You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

These days...i feel like i have found my direction in life. These days..i feel my life has a new meaning..and that im just left with discovering my passion..one that will drive me as hard as as i had before. I feel..once it is rekindled..that passion will drive me further than it did years ago fueled by experience and maturity.

She was asking me.."What is your greatest passion?" I thought...and thought...thought hard..real hard..and i cant think of one. Then i thought again...i thought through an entire process of what really drives me. I discovered that my life was all about not disappointing the ones close to my heart. In my life..i always did things for my loved ones...many of the things that drives me was fueled by emotions of not wanting to disappoint them..of wanting them to be proud of me. Of course there are also many moments in lofe where its about me...just me...and i tend to achieve things not by the spirit of competition but by just wanting to be the best that i can be..to achieve the best i could and not having to feel regret in the end by not putting in the necessary effort needed. So i now have to focus on a passion that is tremendously strong that it will drive me to do things i never thought i could ever imagine of achieving.

About being a commitment-phobic...i think i will only be cured of it once i have found one who really fits me like a glove and one who i will really open the gates of my heart to... Today, I felt so relieved...relieved of a thought that burdens my mind..our minds. Now i believe..we are free to express. Thank you Lat and Kcik..

OK...i have just ironed and reconditioned my smart 4..colour pun dah 'lao jiao' (colour of the shirt faded)..at last i found my epaulette...now left with my beret. I suspect its under the maattresses but Aisyah is sleeping on it..nvrmind la...esok jek la...should be all mouldy i guess. If i cant find it..can always use Aisyah's one!! Hahaha...lucky she's in NCC..i just have to find a crest then! I still need to polish my boots but later la..cos my mom is asleep in the living room and i dun wanna disturb her. Dad's having fever..pray he recovers soon.

Now..i just cant wait to meet up with the penthouse bunkmates! Haha...i tink its gonna be real fun meeting up wearing green. Its been sometime..and YES..i NEED to get a gold for ippt. Cant tell you why but its not a want..its a need.

Everyday i learn something new..i see something new..i feel something new..hope honeymoon is for ever..

U too...

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

After some time, i managed to help poor Ain to wash Hitam. Hahaha...at last! Did it at nek's place..long hose and plenty of space. Just didnt have proper equipment but with our portfolio of washing cars dating back since we were in kindergarten i tink..we went ahead with just two pieces of cloth! Discovered many white-dots..somewhat like stray spray paint mist dried up at the front of hitam...which like all other things that lands on Hitam...it affected my sis alot! Hahaha...she was practically scraping off those dots with her fingernails...and mind u...its A LOT! Such is the passion of a new owner...

And this Friday...i am reporting back to 733SIR for briefing. YESSSAH! Reservist! Its sort of fun the first time i guess..dunno how draggy it will be but commander's brief IS ALWAYS boring. They talk so much crap for an officer. I alwasy thought the army was swift and decisive but since OCS, we have been trained for sooooo much planning that i find it bad. Too slow...

Now i have to decide..no.3 or no. 4?? I cant find my epaulette for my no. 4!! Arrrrrgh! Ajid...kiter pakai number 3 ajek la...hansem sikit tapi kao ingat kite kena blacklist tak gini? Dah lah time NS kiter kena blacklist! Tak habis2...hahaa...cheers penthouse boys of 4SIR!

And YES...i'm in an isolated state of enlightenment...check this out!


May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Hitam's baaaaaaaack like a hundred percent! Had to fork out la..haiz...there goes my casio g-shock cockpit series 740. It was spotless i tell u...Ah Hwang did a great job! Baaaaik Hwang..

Driving convoy with Ina was fun too...Hahaha...at peak hour midday traffic, i was tailing her with cars weaving in and out and she disappearing sometimes changing directions without me knowing..Hahaha...but we managed to find our way to the intended place la. I was sweating profusely and the doggies there were cute! One of them slept like a frog..flat on the floor. Managed to bargain the price down after Ina tried in vain for half an hour. So before we laft..i decided to put my most dumb-cute face forward (Which is my natural all-the-time face right?) and ask for the price to be lowered..YESSSSSAH...saved a bit..also managed to collect Hitam later that day instead of the next day. And yes...A Hwang managed to astound me...Ina said he was good..no..he was great! Nice guy too..

Met Haikel who was in a blurry state at City Hall yesterday too. I He was gonna meet his cousins to hang out. I was trying to burn time waiting for Hitam..so i headed for mph..carik buku la konon. Was reading the interior design books...flipping through the pics..Fyq and i used to do that in JC..haha..forming mental pictures of how each of our house is going to be like. I like Bali and Zen..

Hahaha....and guess what? Md Noor..i read ur blog. Dear Lat...i believed we talked abt this before..i shared that i have the same problem too...ur advice then was "Diff ppl were created in this world to serve diff purposes dok.." somewhere along the line la...and my response was somehow like "Yes..and we each have our own weaknesses that he have to overcome to strengthen ourselves..and yet..often in our weakness, lies our strengths." Hope this helps...and yes..true friendship lasts forever and waver naught dok...i hope it remains strong..

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...