My Resolutions


*Improve my Vital Stats
*Rediscover Him
*Improve Relations
*Be Meticulous
*Communicate Well
*Be a great Motivator-Mentor

Next Upcoming Race...

Newton Run

10 October 2010

Sentosa

30km run

- Turkish Torque

Check out his blog..amidst doing my tr2201 project...hahaha!

The link!
- Turkish Torque


The bits...

Of this World, On Her Own Terms (AUG 21st 2004)

First check out this Washington Post photo:

The Washington Post caption: "In a nearly empty Olympic Stadium Friday morning, a woman wearing a track singlet over a traditional Muslim hijab, its white hood imprinted with the flag of Bahrain, set a national record in the 100-meter qualifying heats. So did a woman from Afghanistan, the first to represent her nation in the Olympics, who ran in loose-fitting pants and a T-shirt and finished 62nd out of 63 competitors."

When I first saw this front page photo I took a hard double-take because I've never before seen a woman in hijab running the 100-meters in an olympic competition.

Then I thought to myself, would I have the same reaction if, let's say, an Israeli athlete was running men's 100-meter with a yarmulka on his head? Probably not.

This lady is clearly not an Islamist because a true Wahhabi-style Islamist would not even appear on the same track with "naked" women from "infidel" nations.

This Bahrainian (correct?) woman (what a brave soul!) definitely wanted to be a part of this international event. She obviously did not want to miss out on being "a part of the action." Athens was the "place to be." So, there is no rejection or renunciation there.

But there is also this personal accounting, this struggle for personal dignity and identity. Perhaps it was out of her own free will, or perhaps it was due to a jealous husband, a disciplinarian father/brother/family, whatever. But for one reason or another, she was compelled to wear the hijab.

She probably said, "OK, fine, where's my hijab?" because she was intent on "taking care of business." The business of the Olympics and competing at a top-notch international level, that is.

And then a time will probably come when the Muslim ladies, handicapped due to the weight and non-aerodynamic qualities of the fabric they are wrapped in, will realize that they cannot become the fastest as long as they train and run covered with fabric from head to toe.

It's not politics. It's not religion. It's physics.

Then there will be a second round of reckoning for them -- would they continue to be "also ran"s?

Or would they realy want to go for it, even if it means wearing modern running gear, like all their competitors do? That's a choice they will have to make, not today, not immediately, but sometime in the future, eventually. It's waiting for them.

Sometimes form follows function, and not politics.

The non-hijab form that the Western politics could not dictate to the conservative Muslims, could cut inroads into fundamentalist Islam through the functionality and physical dictates of top-level Olympic competition.

Cool videos...!!

Where do these people learn to do this??!! Crazzie!!



Best in the world moves in soccer...new aged ones...



Another cool video...Ronaldinho vs. Christiano Ronaldo..



And we'll end it off with this...SAMBA!!

Faizolinho..

What does it mean? Faizolinho..it is little faizola. Hahaha...i was at the nike football website when they prompted me for my name. And asked me my gender and my body size. Then.."Faizolinho..That's your brasilian nickname!" Hahaha..cute..
got this at nike football homepage..viva joga bonito!



www.nikefootball.com

GET off my back!!

A pissy day made me reflect..

And yes..i injured my left elbow during silat practise today. Did a 7-UP scissor kick jatuhan with my partner in freestylin' for today, Daud, and i used my arm awkwardly to support my full weight. Heard a 'crrrreak' and felt my arm contort at the same time. Pain came awhile after that..not those type that makes u go 'AAARGHHHH!!!! SAKIIIT!!!' but one that made me go "DAMN..must this happen?! when can i recover fully?" I tinkits just a hyperextension..no swell, no bruise and no redness..(not that i can see even if its der cos im dark!!) See..its great to have a physio as a part-time girlfriend. Hahaha..always useful that u can ask her for help when shit happens..hehehe..but its really nice to have friends from diverse knowledge fields and background. Whatever help one needs..another can offer his/her help.

And yes..the piss that reflects..

I think yeah..carry on soldier. Who cares anyway..ur the jerk! And in a pissed mood..i saw a quizzila by Azack..so yeah..why not! Burn the time..my results:

HASH(0x8ee8ee0)
You are green. You have a very contradictive

personality. You are both youthful and wise,

giving and greedy. You are a very intelligent

and rational individual. At times you can be

very envious and get frustrated quite easily

but that is balanced out by your nurturing

and patient nature.


What Colour Is Your Personality? (Purty Pictures and longish answers)
brought to you by Quizilla

Only i know if its true or not..u wanna judge go ahead. I dun care! Unless ur a fren who noes me for at least 10years..went through the worst moments with me and kept constant contact with me. The others..shoo..

Well..i feel yeah. Like Rambo once said.."I'm dispensable.." Den the vietnamese girl asks "What mean dispensable?" And his reply.."it means..if im not at a party or something..it dun matter.." I feel some affinity with him. **Faizola..stripped off his form.. I'm tired..jaded..its more than halfway thru the school calendar of the year. I tink i'll just go normal..

And yes..Ajid called to say..we've been assigned our unit. Haiz..means call up is soon. Per year must do at least 4weeks if im not wrong..means i have to clear ippt every year too..means i have to exercise and keep my <9.45min timing..means i have a chance to get $400 every year!!! YEAH!!! Hahahaha...im jus afraid i'll be tummified..

My nek says im gaining abit of weight..and yah..WHOSE FAULT ISIT NEK?? Hahahaha...the one who did the crime..my nenek!! ARRRRRRGHHHH!!! She's feeding me incessantly!! Haahaha..have i ever told u abt my disfancy of food..except when im rather starving? Yep..i find no pleasure in food and drink..the way to a man's heart is thru his stomach yeah?? Sure u?? Not thru me..unless u can feed me a great diet that can keep me wanting more with very little...hahaha..im a fussy simplistic eater. I dun eat alot of stuffs..and i dun need a lot..white rice suffice most of the time..just white rice. But i would want to convert to brown unprocessed rice for a change. They say its healthier and has less sugar content. I dun wanna be diabetic and i dun wanna be lipidified..NO FAT genes in the family!! HEalTHY lifSTYLE!

Ok ok..im still waiting for it...when ain..when????


May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Overnite in SCHOOL!!

Had the worst tutorial day ever!! I was totally unprepared lar! Haiz..didnt do my two tutorial assignments beforehand..ec2101 and ec2303..both econs module..heavy on maths. For those jc kids..if u didnt noe..jc onthe higher level is maths oriented lar!! But then again..i cant imagine myself majoring in other subjects. Econs had been the choice ever since i found myself in Arts and Social Sciences...haiz. All for the dream..dun lose sight of it Faizola..and i want to get a dip or even a dgree in accounting if possible at the same time! Private lar..

But back to my folly..man..i got abit side-tracked. I hate the rush..i hate anxiety..luckily i hadnt panicked. But i guess i blew this quiz. Now i cant afford to blow off any quizzes. Best 5 out of 8 will be added in the calculation of final score. I want a full score in this section. And banging on a full score for mid-term too. If its possible amongst those PRCs..why not a malay boy?? Why..malays stupid meh?! We may not like to be inclined to studies..but thats because of interest and never capabilities. I believe everyone has capabilities to do something especially if his interest lies in it.

I dun want to feel this anxiety again..will do my assignments early. And also start preping for my mid-term..all for the full marks. "Aim for the full-score all the time!"

Today had marketing outing again..free food..too much! At al-ameen..took pictures. It was fun initially but got boring..taking pics after pics of food food and more food!! Arrrrrgh!! and those free seafood and veggies dun appeal to my appetite at all..ahahhaa..

Well..we had a dare to ask for 'hot bandung'. For those who know..bandung drinks are usually served cold. But due to my quirkiness..i actually maybe started a trend of drinking warm or hot bandung. This started in Kuching, Sarawak when the Lawakians were on a nights out at some cyber cafe wich has no trace of computers at all!!! Hahaha...me decided to ask for hot bandung since im craving for one..but had sore throat..so couldnt drink cold drinks. Then i requested for a hot glass of bandung..DUUUUH!! The guy was taken aback for a while but with good service in mind..he made it. Hahahaha...where is service in Singapore man?!! In Singapore..none so far managed to make hot bandung..all declined with a pretext that it was not in the menu and they had premade cold ones in the mixer. But they wouldnt take time to make me a warm glass of bandung..idiots! So far..only had my warm bandungs in Malaysia..see..malaysians have better service...at some places!

And for just now..the challenge was for one of us to successfully ask for a warm glass of bandung. None succeeded. Hahahaha...tink they shop people think we are out to make and have fun! Hope we dun get on their ignore list..imagine...they have posters of us at the back kitchen.."WARNING..these customers make fun of YOU! Codenamed..hot bandungs..STAY CLEAR!"

And guess what? Its 0311am and i am in school..with the guys..slping overnite for CS3..playing soccer later..my group has ITE tampines..rebel skills..and FC Fusball..dunno who they are..but we are all abang2 karat! Hahaha..old liao..rusty..we're just out to have fun!

Nites..Zeeed...aku ngah tunggu..

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Khairin?? Baaaaik arh Zeed..

What a day...

2 times Haagen Daz in a day..can u believe this?! I looooove this job! Hahaha..but i can feel the adverse effects in my tummy..its getting more prone to negativities of gravity..i feel an increase in mass and thus an increse in gravitational potential energy with respect to the earth's core. In short..IM SAGGING!!! AARGGGH!!!

Hahaha..here's the list. 2 times Swiss Sunrise, 1 divine scoop and 1 raspberry smootie..woah!!! The haagen daz at esplanade is higly recommended man. The servers are not baaaaad...service is fast and friendly and the ambience is great la..and haagen daz ice-cream is good..the sorbets especially. Yummy...too bad they ran out of fondue..if not..u can imagine the amt of choc in me..i'd turn horny perhaps with all the cocoa!!

Then we hung out the the bay. U noe..the river in front of esplanade..jus sat there after all the time we did the 'marketing'..haiz..and den as we are about to go back. Guess wat?? Someone's shoe had to fall apart! So as not to look funny..we all took off our footwear. Hahaha..all for one..one for all! Well..its like the first time i walked all the way to citylink mall without footwear..actually first time! Ppl didnt really notice except for this couple..tourist la..and maybe the shop owners when we were looking for footwear. In the end..settled for a pair of hawaianas?? Is that how u spell it? It cost 30 bucks aniwae..ex! I was tinking of getting a pair too..nice!! but the black one no size liao..

den...haiz..

did i log around that vid cam the whole for nothing?? buat berat jerr...

And hadi's attached..hahaha..thats a fast wish!!

Najee..its full moon..

Im slping overnite at school tomorow..

Nak noes about vios..so i tink dad noes too..

When am i getting my econs tutee!?!

I tink im bored..

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

My not so conspicuous date...

Long DAY!

slept at nearly 5am in the morning..woke up to my dismay at 8.30am when i had to be there to tutor my pri.6 kids at 9am!! Oh my minah...boy was i in a rush lar..mandi macam koboi abit la..jus shower..shampoo my whole body from head to toe while brushing my teeth...den rinse off and shave. Time? 5 mins...didnt get to do my ritual horse stance practise also (better sentence for shitting!)

I took my wallet, my keys and yep..a PEN! Dats all u need to tutor..a PEN! Really..other than that..u just need to be smart and dress smart..HAHAHA..that makes me sound like a conman right?? But lets just say..im a salesperson. I sell my knowledge..see if you buy anot la..if u accept my goods(knowledge) ..u buy and u own it.

But the difference between consumer goods and knowledge is that FIXED COSTS increases with quantity of knowledge..but variable costs are somewhat zero. And marginal cost of output? Zilch...hahahah..worthwhile economy arh this tutoring sector! "But then no cpf lar...how to buy house u tell uncle zola?!"

Hahaha..at least now my P6 class are abit chirpy..BUT they do concentrate on their work. Did composition for the main bulk of the time just now..hahaha..their compositions are hilarious!! No offence...im not laughing at anything but their creativity...damn CREATIVE lar! From a glowing stove..to aliens?? From mushroom to wings? Sheesh!! Kids..fun teaching them...

Well..i jus hope im doing oryt with them..that they understand what is it that im teaching them and bring it back as knowledge. And i really hope they excel in their psle..den they'll have no worries thinking which choice of school they are going to get.

And bubz..what's wrong? U orait?

Me and Rab sort of had a date under my block..where exactly? In front of the DUMP-SITE!! Hahaha...recline the seat all the way back..put the laptop in between and edited. Rab cut two 2-3 paged articles into nearly 1 pg. We were like so kebuntuan tinking of malay words and both of us are not exactly good in malay. Once cant speak properly and the other cant write well..and what are we? We are the EDITORS of the magazine la sial!! Worked from 1000 till past midnite..with a packet of drink and bread from the coffeeshop.. a few ppl walked past passing weird stares at us..seemingly lying down in the car...what would u tink?? Cmon...u noe me! Whhaaaat sia....dun believe?? Kids...im clean la! We were doin work..R1 can vouch..

But we're 1wk to first draft print. phewww...its near...maner adverts lagik?!!

I need sleep...well..i reached home safe..unlike fazli who experienced a trauma..Rab actually drove well on our way back after sending anita home. Rilexed..middle lane..hahaha..comfortable..so Rab...u can drive well maah..

But we nearly thot we were gonna be stuck in the Thaipusam procession in serangoon la...jam packed...

okla...i need sleep.

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

ME??

Hmmm...why isit that people always think ur up to something when u do something?

Wait..what's the motto for this year? "No Fear"..We step onto this earth, created and owned solely by the Exalted One. All creatures..are of his creation and discretion. Why fear things u are equal to? Since u originate from the same creator..

Well..that doesnt sound really nice but thats the gist of THIS year's motto.

Secondly..yeap..it dawned upon me again about last year's motto..which was self-development. Have i achieved the level that i am aiming for? Last year was a year of many downs and little ups the way i see it. But the last few months..i manage to turn the ship full steer around..altho it has not yet completed the turn. I felt that..yes..as i have said in the blogs..maybe 10-20 blogs ago..that im starting to become someone i do not want to. I tink i am...somehow i feel i behave best alone. I like the quiet me..somehow, i dun really feel happy being chirpy. Sometimes words come out from my mouth in which i would reflect later..thinking i would be better of not saying it in the first place. I tink..the inert me is a silent person..uneasy in holding out conversations..fiercely committed to anything worthy of my focus.

I feel it coming back again..i think its a resurgence.

And well...i feel that somewhat..when i was deleting away old messages..that one msg from a dear frean said i like to make use of mind play to get answers out. Hahaha...trust me..i dun use it la!! Maybe a few times..but i dun use it for fun..maybe for naughty purposes la..but then..i dun use it to PLAY with minds..just to get certain things out. Things i wanna noe..hehehe.."coutesy of idamurni who is happily involved now"

And then there are the people who said i was a crazie idiot who plays NEVER on safe sides. I think there were times in sec sch were my buddies would always wish i would take safe approaches when we were preparing for some competitions. But hey...i dun conform.. sometimes!! I jus wanna noe my 'playing area' and what i can do within..den i prefer not to think about impossibilities but what should be done to win. Den we train for it...trainig is undoubtedly tougher but Do-able maaah...but den which competitions have i lost that i actively planned in?? Ryt Beng?

Hahaha...what else? Im geeky? They said i used to speak in Malay that is saya dan kamu? I dunno where u heard this from but i tink its nonsense!! I've always been aku kau since primary sch...altho my house advocates nice language la..hahaha!

Haiz...but am i too overly focused on my goals? Isit bad? That my frens get affected..that i had to sacrifice and hurt? I've always felt i work best alone but then i cant work alone all the time. I really need to work on interpersonal relationships. I realise this is army..that leadership is NOT my forte. Im best in planning but leading. But im not gonna rest on my hinds cause i need this skills to get to where i wanna be..i first need to be decisive and stern. Training up that sector on my primary 4 kids. If i can work it on them..i tink i am successful. Those lil devil bois are a handful! Hahahha..but fun!

I need to sleep...

And a tip..

"Try not to read into people's intentions. Dun be too overly suspicious. I treasure sincerity and honesty. I respect are of pure heart.."

Elation...YEAH!!!

I just got the news..

"Izal!!" with a smile in the voice..so i knew...its went thru..YEAH YEAH!!

So now..plan two..find all the stuffs to accessorize! Woohoo..meeting her at 12 tomorrow..mmmmm...in the end..its black. Well..my infatuation with blacks huh? Hahaha..have i told you about the way i like the way blacks talk and how cool they can be? Hanafiah should noe..

Well..about the good..im really waiting. But i now have an added pressure to pass. At least now i can do the reverse. Can weave thru..but im still not used to the lefts. Will i do it in one clean kill?

Well..for those who do not understand a single hell of what i tok about..GIVE UP!!

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Back to the innert-self??

Well, had my first ever bloody presentation in NUS!!

Damn..it was my FNA1002, accounting..had to present an assignment..grp work. There were 4 questions so each of us presented one. And i had to present the toughest one. How would i know??? They told me to pick one..so i picked that question lar! Hahaha..anyways..i need to work on this man..accounting. It is one of the shortlisted subject to get A+ for this sem..hehehe..so how? Still can Faizola?

And well..bubz and me somewhat settled. Resolved..still the same.

Is this a damn problem of me? Fear..unsettledness..indecisiveness..guilt..fussy..picky..or maybe im just too calculative. Maybe i have too much time in my hands now..so i dun need to decide. What happended to my rilek-rilek and enjoy life? Or m i just falling back to my innert character. That i only go all out..

Maybe i need to justify myself..or am i justifying my actions? I am just as confused as you are. Hit by something that even i didnt realise was coming till the last split second. I am still trying to find the answers or should i just give up since its all been settled for and done?

I remember Haizu told me once before about my character. That i may be one who seems to be so nonchalant in everything i do..without a care in the world. But when im focused..he says..i will be one who focuses all out on the task that i tend to forget those close to me. I hope if this is really true..may i not ever do it to my mother, father, nenek and family. Many great men have fallen due to this..regretting it all in the end. Like Jet Li in Fearless..but he was still great! Hahaha..

Maybe i should just list down what are the testimonials i wanna get upon my demise from this worldly place. Maybe i should..

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Mr Taxi-man

GUess WHAT??

I forgot to tell ya all about my experience with a taxi driver on the way to Kampong Siglap Mosque on Monday afternoon. Damn was it weird!

Imagine..u get into a cab..uncle starts toking to u. NORMAL?? Yes...

Then..he was asking directions...i dunno siah how to go..ask me to describe..den he OK..noes the way. NORMAL?? Yes...

And then he says.."U know har..i just F@%$ed OFF an indonesian maid u know just now!" Normal?? NO!!! Wadda HELL!!! Then he started telling me this whole story thru the 7min journey which i duly listened to..out of due respect and also FEARING he might do something STOOPID like banging it against a lamp post or tree or something!! If it was a pokok taugeh i wouldnt mind la!!

But hey..the story goes. The indonesian maid is an employee of his sister's. Get it? He is divorced..with 2 children..didnt tell the maid. Get it? On CNY..maid finds out about 2 children..not happy..taxi driver sees no need to tell her as she also has 3 children an married to a husband back in INdon..GET IT??

The gist is..maid now not happy. Taxi driver tinks that they should break their affair as he feels she is sucking his money dry. (Glad he is aware of that!!) Said in total, thru the year or two relationship with the maid, he has spent nearly $16k on her. FOR? Expenditure, sending remittance, buy toys n clothes for children, buy new plot of land..blah blah blah. Taxi driver claims that The Maid = Money grubber!

He claims, he just gave the maid $1, 500 the previous month and this month, she asking for $1k..give ang pao $20 also not happy..complain why lesser than last year. "Ang Pao not really about money mah! Her employer give $28, fair mah i give abit less! Give present also still complain..." said Mr Taxi-man. He claims that especially now, when he is in financial difficulty, The Maid cleverly sent all her valuables n money back to indon so he cant ask from her anything. SMART??

Well, he ask my opinion..(I gave my opinion!!) Hahaha..i told him.."Sir, i tink..throw away lar. She only like want your money lar..after that u rugi. She get your money, family in Indonesia enjoy your money..u down here suffer. No point lar.." Hahaha..well..how?

Then once reached the mosque, toked a bit more..same advice. I got down at last with a huge sigh of relief. I was just not used to it!

My unpublished blog..30th Jan 06

Somehow, I like this feeling. Isolation. It may not be as happy and happening as being with someone, but at least I know I feel nice inside. Am I selfish to do so?

So far im keeping myself occupied..with werk and thoughts. With sleep and activity.. Just had Rehlatul Iman last Monday night with the NUS Muslim Society. There were a lot of people, kidz and gals..hahaha..guys? U got quite a bunch but as usual..the GENG made an impact. Hahaha..somehow I feel at times..people get so pissed with us. Sometimes..i feel the look down on us..but somehow..we feel that its natural for us to be like that when we are together! Imagine what 4 people can do in an organization. Tunggak Harapan, Penggerak Wawasan eh?? (Pillar of hope..engine of dreams..i think!) Hahaha..

So we come to this topic of mine…Child-like vs. Immature. What is defined as immature in the first place? Well..kids usually THINK they are mature. So, what is mature? I think we can fight till the cows come home and yet, we will never reach a concrete solution where everyone is agreeable. So here I am..in my blog..offering my stand. Rebut me if you want but it’s just my offering so no offence ok?

In my humblest opinion, I think maturity refers to a state of logical reasoning that a persons mind can achieve. It comes through, I feel, experience, knowledge and to an extent..the persons’ innate character. What is immaturity then? I would want to be able to say, ‘the direct opposite’ but I cant say it too..cos my very definition of maturity is not completive. I would say..immaturity lies in the ability of a person to reason and control his/ her emotions. Somehow, it is usually linked to age but there are times where this rule of thumb doesn’t hold. Like for example..in the bus just now. There were a group of people having an extremely loud conversation..laughing loudly at jokes which commonly sounds funny to them. At one instance, I knew they were either from a secondary school level or some JC kid..and wallah..i was right!! They were wearing HWJC pants and skirts.

The point I am bringing across here is not that I am some great shrink but hey..image really reflects a bit of how your character is deep inside. Somehow I feel, the best way to judge a person..(ur not supposed to do it anyway!!) is during an acid test. If u want to do it..observe a person at his weakest, at the most challenging and opportune moment BUT never fall into the trap of judging on just one bad account. F*%$ ups happen all the time and it is never fair to judge one person on one account only. Which is why..judging is never a human job because we never know what the person does at all times..what he’s thinking and what were his intentions. Human laws are not as perfect as those of the Divine but sometimes..we just have to make do with the BEST knowledge at the point of time.

Which brings me to another part..INTENTIONS. Am I doing things based on intentions or is it just by some freak accident. (Leave fate out of this..it is supposed to be an after death thingy in my belief..) You know how u can somehow sail through life not knowing where you are heading towards..we plan..god decides. But do we still plan? As they say..’fail to plan=plan to fail.’


May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...