A bid to keep to my 2010 new year's resolutions...

Haiz...eventful week last week. Been EXTREMELY busy..SALAM n all..hahaha..at least not we got 2 more advertisers who is willing to part with their budget! Had to be thick skinned for one of them but it really paid off..she even thot that our persistence was remarkable. "I like your style..persistent marketing..never give up." Hahaha..at least we worked to a bargaining position.

Had a talk with my elder sister yesterday when we went AHEMZ** shopping..my elder sister was from NUS Muslim Society..those JK JK..haiz* and i was telling her about how marketing is done nowadays..based on my observation. There is no WIN-WIN situation!! The marketing plan is worked out with very little or no consideration of the company's or potential sponsors' welfare. Why should they help us then? Might as well ask for donation right?? But i don't think that's how University students should work..where are the skills that set us apart from the rest of the tertiary graduates?? We are supposed to be the specialist in soft-skills and administration. I realised the importance of paperwork and soft-side skills when i was working in the NDP 2004 planning committee. Darn..it was the worst wake up call of all that time! Yes i agree..time may not be on our side sometimes but at least the work must be of a presentable level, worthy of a work by so-called local academic elites.

In saying this..i need to buck up too. When reminding others..always remind urself first. I feel the falling rate of work ethic in me..n yes! Discipline level is plummeting again..especially in the area of religion. Better do something about it zola..

My time-table's packed..what happened to nothing on wed and thur?!!

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

I felt like the most useless guy ever this year..so far.



I forgot how it felt..really..i didnt know how to express it. It had been hard so far, to accept the overwhelming emotions that came. I felt fear..fear that cripples me from my heart. Although the hardness of my heart fenced me away from you, my eyes and emotions were not blind to your sincerity..not dumb towards your genuine efforts. I'm sure whatever i say now won't matter..not anymore.

I'm just not capable to make any decisions now..and i wun feel good doing what is not within me to do..whatever i can offer i did..i did. Honestly..i seldom pulled back. Now u know..

If u felt i pulled back..i seldom did. Teased..i did. Messages and calls..i never pulled back. U could have felt i did..do i? Whenever we talked..did i? If you really thought back and compared..u'd really see..see that there is little difference. That what you thought i pulled back was merely a figment of your perception. Maybe its the increasing expectation..maybe its getting deep.

I'm just not good with words..lazy with communication and am more at peace with myself. Relationships are not built within days..but with moments and experiences. Forging a relationship is different from establishing one. Maybe we had just established ours..

U had been a special fren so far. One willing to stay with me..be happy and share with me. Thank You.

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Had a long day today at school...actually tuesdays will be a looooooooooooooooooong day for this semester. 8am to 9pm...starting with econometrics, followed by political science..den entrepreneurial marketing..HAHAHA..my eyes cant take it!!!

And when i saw Md Noor and Kamie at the library just now at 9pm..i suddenly thot back of my club 4 and beyond..they are members..but what am i doin now?? NOTHING!!! but they are already hard at it..man!! OK Lat and Kamie..im back! Lost focus for a while larh..sorry! Hehehe..towards 4 and beyond..

Updates..Econometrics is STATISTICS man! I remember how i got like 6/100 for my maths c exam in JC1..hahaha..dumb! I was never meant for a life in JC lar. Entrepreneurial Marketing is alright..will have group work. Me n Faz, plus Farid..a Social Werk major in his 3rd year will be in a group..along with a Paki guy, a mama lady..faz schoolmate in jc and a tiong hua gal..hahaha! Actually me n Faz scared the Paki guy..not those sort of timid scared but wary and judgmental feeling. He gives us the same impression of a typical ..u noe..tok mcm real jer..seems like those who 'push job - claim credit' kind..but we'll see..anyway..our grade will be OUR grade..no point sitting back and complaining is anything were to happen. We're still gg for that A!! Hahaha...

Salam is too slow..

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Was out with the OPS Khalawat people..OK 3.78 i think..HAHAHA! Can never get to OK4 can we?? As usual..Ops Khalawat is all laughter..no boredom. Warm up takes a few hours...laugh3..till we start our main activity..eat..and laugh3..HAHAHA...people choke on food..spurt food out while bursting in laughter..ppl tear in over-happiness and also actions that if able to be preserved in freeze-frame would be stuffs of legends. Hahaha...today was more about..SECRETS..hahah..we go into the unknown lives of the OK gals..hahaha..shan't divulge it here but..

"HEY..i never knew!! Woah..Azack was hot stuff huh and Lina was mentel?? Hahaha..or are u still?"

Back then, people own bus-stops..i never knew. Much like those Ah-bengs who tinks they own the territory i guess..ask for tax..never pay tax. Haha..toking about these bengs..they keep asking for protection money but i feel..its because of their presence that all these troubles like members from other gangs invading and rioting comes..its like..they ARE the cause of the problem!! And they what..ask for money to protect ppl from problems caused by they themselves?? Cmon beng...use ur brain. And most of the time when problem comes..u run away anyway!! Pengecut! Watch too much tv..these ppl..when they are in groups..they act as thou they are some big shot mafia who only noe how to act big and suck up tp Ah-beng who they think are legends.. but when they are alone..haiz.. Wanna follow ppl from Young and Dangerous?? See how smart u are first..becoming leader not so easy u noe beng..hahah.

Think i'm getting out of point!

Had a day of deprived sleep today. Caught barely 3hrs of total winks in 2days!! Hahaha..all because of photoshop! Bloody design-addict..hope this addiction reaps in fruitful and good things in future..especially in monetary terms! Wahaha..

Played wrestling with the Primary 4 tuition kids too just now during break time..(they dun consider wrestling time break time cos they didnt go down to buy sweets yet! kidz...) Quite rough lah dey play..boys..went through that stage once! We were competing who can burp more and loudest..whether i can toss a sweet high in the air and catch it in my mouth..but i was finding it tough to keep them focused on their revision.. Hahaha..but i felt satisfied that Nabil managed to understand maths after i explained it to him painstakingly for nearly 30mins!! Hahaha..satisfaction huh..



And yah..kinda missing my Donkey now..miss the flexibility and the ease of transport..whizzing around on two wheels at 70kmh. Takes a few minutes to reach places..much faster compared to going public! But i cant deny the comfort of having ppl to 'chauffeur' u around and u can SLEEP during journeys..not get wet in rain..see gals..sit with frens..yeah..




"BYE BYE Donkey..i see u nearly everyday..
Everytime on the way to school..
Once in red, u are now chic in black..
White walls gleaming again in white..
hopefully ur cured of ur bronchitis..
and ur digestive system are good as new..
ur nerves i hope i tidy again..
Oh donkey..
BYE BYE.."

Well..i need to sleep..feeling the heat liao..my ears feel HOT!

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

I am sorry if i ended yesterday on a bad note..i couldnt see a reason as to why it should be that way. I couldnt see a reason as to why one should set a timeframe of WHEN TO START to change..is there a difference between changing for the better NOW and tomorrow? Even so..i remember the words said to us in Rebutia.."I set a resolution for the new year..is there a difference? Can u really feel the NEW year transition at the stroke of midnite on 01-01-zero-something?" Why wait to change for the better..





We'll..had Aloha Aidiladha two days ago..quite fun especially cam-whoring! Hahaha..but the best part is photoshop-ing the photos after that..my new found interest! After this..im gonna learn 3D studio Max..hehehe..fun fun..

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Today had my second lesson for the Primary 4 kids. Noisy bunch! Hahaha..kids..all guys somemore..guess that made it worse huh!? I remember the first day where Khairul came in with a sullen black face..his adik had to push him in..his lil sis is in P1. Hmmm..he didnt want to sit down..just stared down..sullen..tearing. Hahaha...less than half an hour later, he was all smiles and laughter. When i firts heard his voice, i was like.."woah!!! he can talk!!" Mmmmm...this was a soliloquy..meaning..i said it to myself..in my own mind.


I have another Primary 6 class on Saturdays, and on thursday..i have a new addition, a sec 3 boy whom i have to assist in E maths and Combined Sciences...guess what? AAAAAAARGGGGGGGGGGGH!!! I dun remember any?!! But for the sake of a grand a month..i have to work n juggle my sem CAP score goal of 4.9! I am a man on a mission..eye on the prize..stomach tucked in and chin up parallel to the ground..i am thinking of one more..i WANT to teach econs.. They say..when u are able to teach..u understand better. Since im majoring in econs..why not tutor econs..u wun wanna paiseh urself when u teach someone and thus..ego kicks in! U will suck in all the difficulties and MAKE urself understand it so as to be able to fulfil ur liability to ur tutee..


Well..maybe i have to restructure my priorities. Activities? Silat and CP..one or both has to go. I wanna get a dip in accounting before i graduate too i guess. Wanna do internship so before i grad..i get experience in accounting..its all for the goal. The cafe with the Khalawats, Faz n my dream corporation...my dream life. My black Subaru Impreza wrx sti TURBO with red brembo brakes, gun-metal rota rims, titanium short-stick gear shift(without a round knob) and F1 steering wheels...and those big titanium exhaust..(another of my rugged infatuations..)..haiz..WAHAHAHAHA!!!! Dun lauf Ain..im gonna get it..


There is a need to step up marketing for Salam..need to remind the heads of the submission of the articles too..must check up on the design..need to gel everything now and see the 'actual' thing..or draft.



May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

My first day in school..had to attend two lectures. EC2101: Microeconomic Analysis 1 and FNA1002: Accounting. I made it a point to sleep at max 12midnite ystrday so i can wake up for subuh (successfully..) and i did! Guess..if i have nothing (assignments, projects and other misc stuffs) to settle..i will sleep before midnite. One thing i have learnt from last year is that..MSN SUCKS U OFF!!!! It's a parasite devouring you off your precious time! But hell..its a good way to tok to ppl and get to know your frens. Its a GOOD evil..but i have to keep off it! (Aisyah..i noe u r reading this..stay off the net unless absolutely necessary..its an advise from a brother.)


I'm sitting here..tapping away on the keyboard of kcik's laptop..tiny laptop which i can barely make out the words on the screen but compact and portable..VERY portable compared to my 2.7kg 15-inch thick and rugged IBM which could kill if used in appropriate ways. (well..typical Faizola huh? Remember my Siemens phone..n my dream ericsson waterproof phone..?) I have always had a soft-spot for ruggedness in design. Not one who fancies the softies thing...so far..all the stuffs i aim for are somewhat rugged in design. I want a jeep / truck / suv for a vehicle. I like rustic designs for interior..i only accept tag heur and g-shock on my wrist..wad else?? Hmmm...if i remember i'll note it down.


So far..microecons analysis have revealed itself..somewhat..being more of the mathematical cousin of the normal microecons that i had learnt so far. For the first lesson jst now..we dwelved into the equations involved in Demand and Supply Analysis as well as elasticities..and yeah.."fitting" the cuuurve. There is gonna be a quiz for every tutorial lesson..i guess..yeah..myt as well since it will somewhat force me to revise. Thay'll take the best 5 out of 8 and use that as participation marks in class. Working for a perfect 5 to be able to beat those PRCs whom i have heard off..been able to pull up the moderation standards due to the overwhelming number of A+...if they're A+..i will have to be one to so i wun get a chance to be sucked down the whirlpool of local students who rest on their hinds in comparison to these PRCs who slogged their way here. What diff do we have in physical form?? Zilch..genetically yes but hey..god gave us strengths to complement our weakness. These two are complementary goods within an individual! Hahaa..


Accounting had been OK..abit similar to sec school concept only much deeper and more theoretical..definitely more advanced so i guessed whatever backgrd i had only served as intro to the chapters in this module. I hope it helps me grab an A at least..i also observed that out of the 959ppl taking this module..there are MANY Nguyens..meaning? Viet Kongs...hahaha...naah..just joking. Yep..many viets are taking this module..havnt heard a tall tale about them..but im not giving them chance. MAybe after i conquered the accountancy modules..i can go take a private dip or degree in accountancy? Open up my jobscope..n its all for the 'bigger goal'..the family goal that Fazli n i have. Well..we are really working towards THE goal..


This sem..to get my CAP up to 4.0..i have to get a 4.9......basically A's and A+..nothing else. So im focused..my eye on the prize..i'll go for the 4.9..the dean's list insyaallah will also be bagged. And yes..a bursary or something. I'm in need of money!!! I just got a job at the tuition ctr..mercu learning ctr at Bangkit. Teaching P4 and P6 kids..my financial goal? SGD$1000 p/mth..at least for 3 consecutive months this year...i'll need 2-3 more tuition job to cover for this. Auuuuuwah!


Orait..on guard..

SRRR is over..


Our team lost all four of our matches...not easy i've got to admit. The first was against TP..one of their senior teams. Second was against Red Tide..i dun tink they ever lost anyway! 3rd was against NP club momo...we expected a fight..we fought but still lost. But we chalked up our first goal in an open competition that match. Yep..i scored with my unreliable tipper which suprisingly worked! Guess it was the fire n focus that moment. I couldn't play the last match..tough one..against SP because i had tuition...cant cancel that one. Haiz...aaaaaargggghhhhhh!!!!


When is it we are ever gonna be unbeatable?!! Damn...i guess one department we lack in is team synergy. Yes..maybe off the pool we can mix well and have fun but on the pool..we dun seem to have fun. Maybe its the idea of how environment on the pool shld be..i have this believe that whatever it is..one shld enjoy his/her game..one of my team mates is the firm opposite. Whenever someone smiles..he takes it as being not focused and complacent. But i believe that its was NEVER complacency..esp when we lose a match. I believe..the key failure was team synergy. We dun even understand each other well...one cannot fully impose his ideas on the whole team maah!! Dang dingdongs..


Team synergy lies in compromise..its lies in understanding and patience..it lies in commitment and passion..and ONE COMMON GOAL. We have that commmon goal..and not the rest. Nothing..NOTHING..happens overnite unless its so easy that it can..but easy come easy go..get it?


Life jus suck doesnt it..but i still love it..No dang dingdong is gonna make me change my outlook of life just yet. If im gonna enjoy my game..i AM gonna enjoy my game. Im not gonna lose my direction in life just to suit anyone's else's goals unless u occupy a very special place in my life. Ryt now..i cant even focus on silat. IVP is coming and i WANT to participate. But tuition had to fall on Mon, wed and sat..what to do..i need cash. If i had to even resort to selling my precious Donkey..what made u tink i wasn't desperate?! And its raining so heavily the entire of today!! Im in YIH ryt now..didint need to go to the students lounge to enjoy cool temperatures cos its cold and im wet after moving back the boats from SP back to NUS.


Been starting to read up FNA1002..this sem..i have to get A's and minimum of B's...if i wanna bring my CAP to a 3.8 and above...CHeeeeeecken..its do or die. God help me..

May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

Just came back from 3J's BBQ cum Shikah's birthday BBQ cum dunno what else la! It drizzled intermittently throughout and we were kept busy keeping the amber alive. Started off late due to the rain..when i arrived at around 1940hr..Muz was busy making the fire with the gals.. We were enjoying more time starting the fire n spent lesser time barbequeing!!


Spent out time singing like mad people..belting out nasyids, malay rock oldies..and reminiscing times we had at 3J Jr. Hahaha..certainly wasn't a quiet get together with a bunch of crazy ppl put together!! Also played bluff and cam-whored as usual.. HAHAHA! But in the end..a lot of food was wasted larh..no time to cook..fire not strong and large enough to accomodate mass cooking on big scale. Den ppl had to go home..and the ppl left..including me..who cleaned up the place had to eventually eat leftovers and throw away many stuffs... but we enjoyed ourselves too! Hahha..took a cab back with Kamal, Kcik's Red Riding Hood boy and Nidzam..cab journey was full of tok-cock too..reached home at around 0030hrs.


For Salam, they clinched a deal with Baladi Lebanese cafe thingy. Place has a good ambience..nice colours..they bought the inside back cover ad page. Blend Inn..had conditions that they want us to fulfil but i tink we are accomodating them...cos it works alright on our side. We wun want to give in and affect our publication at the same time..


Well..today also i had my first lesson tutoring the P6 kids at Mercu..hahah..quiet bunch of kids..haiz..good! Cos of that, i cant attend the match tadi..we lost 5/6-0 to SP. Hmmmm...haiz..wld i even make a difference??!!Tink im getting my flabs back after 1wk of slowed down training..aaaaaarrggggggh! But at least i got all the mods i bidded for already..slowly stress larh..not time yet. And i managed to bid quite little points on them. Thank u Kcik for helping me bid when im in Rebutia!


I need a bosst of energy now...NAJEEE!!!! Apahal diam?!?!


May Allah guide us all..bless us with happiness and health n protect us from the dangers of this world, physically or mentally. Help us become successful people in the world and after...

THE ADVENTURE!!

I tagged along with the 3J Junior crew to Pahang. Dropped off near Pahang to swap bus cos its troublesome for our driver to send them to Kampung Desa Murni and subsequently send me back to Temerloh Bus Terminal..so in the middle of a highway..at the side actually..i swapped bus.


When i reached Temerloh..went to look for buses to Singapore. There were ZILCH..illai..ZERO! Arrrrrrgh!! My brain set in..i asked for bus to JB..got one..10pm..i calculate..hmm..by then when i reach Singapore..its in the early wee morning siak! Abih camne???!! So i took a bus to KL...reached..Titiwangsa..i saw a monorail n the LRT...hmmm..i went to the LRT..scanned the board..KL sentral has airport link, trains and shopping centres!! Heheh..so i asked for ticket there..the lady advised me to take the monorail since its more direct..so i trodded there with my ziplock bag full of kueh lapis in my hand and heavy bagload. Train ride was fun..nice nite scenery..dropped at KL sentral..walked..and AAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGH!!! Where's the train to Singapore?!! So i decided to take out my trump card..call Pak ITam..my uncle who resides in Shah Alam..and...


He asked me to stay for the nite at his place. Made me call my cuzzin to pick me up..i waited for ard 45mins at the place..my cuzzin came..WAHAHA!! I felt so lucky to have a close knit family even in Malaysia...we went to meet his best friend..went makan..and den went to pick up my eldest cuzzin who coincidentally is coming back from Sarawak at 1am that morning..and for the irst time..i sat in a car that was driving at 150kmh...wooooooooooooooh!! Hahah..Malaysia..truly asia..where can u do that in Singapore?!!


Reached Pak Itams' place at nearly 2 plus..slept and woke up at 0630hr in the morning..along and angah was preping to go to werk..Pak Itam n me went to the bus terminal 5mins away to get tickets..my bus was at 0915hrs so me and Pak Itam went for breakfast at the Mama shop nearby..morning peace...environment in Malaysia felt so different man..not that i didnt noe..but hell yaah..its a bit more peaceful..not much rush..


Den i boarded the bus..bought DVDs at Macap..rounded Larkin and went home..


End of Adventure..